今天随叫随到，生活随叫随到

直到周五，当我面试并获得当地医院行为医学系的全职职位时，我在该部门被称为PRN或按需职位。我辗转到了所有的行为医学科，包括化学依赖科、儿童与青少年科、老年科和成人行为医学科。严格来说，我仍然在那个位置上，因为尽管我已经收到了老板的录用通知，但正式录用通知必须经过人事办公室，而且要到明天才会出现。我不知道我必须在今天早上上班前打个电话，看看我是否在工作。在过去，如果人事办公室把我列入工作日程，我就会工作，但显然这已经改变了。我接到夜班护士的电话，非常粗鲁地告诉我，我没有打电话去看我是否在工作，她打电话是为了告诉我，我今天是随叫随到的，这基本上意味着，如果我在早上7点到晚上7点之间接到电话，那么我必须在半小时内赶到那里。很显然，明天也是这样。我不喜欢这整个体系。我必须在早上5点起床，只是为了看看我那天是否在工作。这很荒谬，但这似乎就是我最近的生活方式。 My husband has been spending time in the Behavioral Med. unit for Bipolar Mania. He needed a little tweeking with his meds and a little bit of a viewpoint adjustment on life. I feel like my life is lived on-call. I live life on the edge of my seat. I feel like I don't know what's going to happen next. I don't feel in control of anything right now and I was doing really well with my Bipolar. I just don't feel like I can do anything to keep control over my own body or my own marriage. My husband and I want to have a baby, but we have been unsuccessful in getting pregnant. I just feel lost right now. But I'm on-call for everybody else's needs, go figure.