这都是爱丽丝梦游仙境。

哈哈哈. .如此的许多药物…这颗药丸会让你长高，这颗会让你变矮。我讨厌吃这些药。我讨厌余生都要吃药。我讨厌破碎。我恨在我之前给我这个的几代人。我恨自己有这个。有时候我觉得干脆说去他的，不吃药会更好。有时候我真不想再去看医生了。我不想在生活中一直失败但我不想处理处理这件事。 I want to call a do-over in my life. I walk around now and look at the people around me and think "why me?" I look at my family and friends and realize that the can never understand what I am going through. I feel like I will always be alone in this. I guess I'll just hold on until the next manic episode and I'll feel a million times better..or until I get a new prescription.