原谅自己尴尬的醉酒行为

我感觉有点松了一口气,我不是唯一一个遭遇停电,所有的aweful随之而来的事情尽管这些故事很悲伤。我是一个太容易熄灭…我需要想倾诉的经历我已经处理。它的有趣,因为我从未使用过黑这个容易但今年已经糟糕的每次我喝白酒。
我有三个短故事和一个长一个。
第一个不那么糟糕的时间我想当我在5月我男朋友的朋友的孩子的生日聚会。我最终混合白兰地和龙舌兰酒,有人告诉我我只是愚蠢和不跳舞,所以它不是那么糟糕,但我的男朋友没,开心. .你介意他不是一个酒鬼。他只是不喜欢它,不选择喝。这是好的。但是我第二天早上醒来,忘了我们甚至当我们到家了。
第二个出现有点糟糕。现在是下个月,我们有一个毕业庆祝给我男朋友的朋友在一所房子。我们都是挂在外面,没有太疯狂。氛围很好。我觉得有时当我和我的男朋友一起出去他真的出去玩我不多,所以无论他是事件我总是去他检查或看到他做什么. .有时很讨厌的,但我想有一个美好的时光。我诚实地宅在家里的人,我不出去,我没有朋友所以我只去我的男朋友和他的朋友被邀请参加的事件。我不会喝那么多,但我觉得它困难当你周围的人就像“枪开枪射杀”每10分钟左右。所以我把照片,接下来你知道我有一个停电。我穿着背心,我不得不总是低拉起时,我想我是tryna很有趣当我的胸罩是显示的一些女孩我坐在一起喝酒,我溜出我的乳头几次。 I guess I was also being too friendly with some like random fat guys dancing around - not with them - but also taking snapchats with them on their phones or something (which I wanna say they are absolutely not my type and not the least bit attractive to me) anyways I guess I was being a little too "ratchet" and embarrassing my boyfriend so he decided to just drop me off at home and on the way to the car I guess I threw up in the driveway and he ofc had to carry and drag me in the house. I didn't know he went back to the party but when he came back home to wake me up and confronted me about what I did and what had happened I was still drunk. And being confronted I didnt know what to do so I just said "okay don't be with me then" and so he dropped me off to my moms down the street that night and we took a little break.
* *边的故事,我们的关系
(这是我发泄我猜)
请注意. .我们的关系一直非常有毒了三年,虽然今年已经比所有其他年我们一直在一起,仍是我们需要工作…这3年用于总是他,因为他曾经待我像废物一样由于他与前妻分手,他是这样的因为他有一个孩子,现在几乎经常只看到. .当我和他见面,我必须处理所有的伤害和所有的坏。我经历过地狱,和他回来,但我们绝不能让彼此走出于某种原因。他知道他对我,但没来实现它只有当我们分手。当时,他只爱我,因为我爱他。因为我困在处理这一切。
上次分手,去年我们是现在可能大约在同一时间,他把我限制的不理解我的感受很多情况,所以我们决定剪掉这次我非常伤心。我是一团糟,随着时间的流逝慢慢地原谅他。当然,通常发生,他意识到所有我为他所做的和我想要的东西好了更喜欢的关系质量时间,只是一起做事和其他东西。他非常沮丧,他不是他自己,没有吃好,并不是全部。他抽大麻,随便喝(他没有),但因为他认为这次他终于失去了我。他甚至向我求婚。我没有上当他却几个月试图说服我,乞求我。我的心真的都不是目前为他. .我已经慢慢愈合的分手,想克服他。但经过数周,一个月左右,这过去了. . I gave in. We promised to make this relationship better and really make it work this time. And so we did. In December when we got back together and it was NYE after the countdown, he asked me to be his girlfriend again. There was still some things that happened shortly after we got back together, but we didn't give up. And I knew he really loved me this time...
*不管怎样回到我酒后出现*
所以我第二次出现的时候喝酒成为一个问题,我对我所做的是如此悲伤,我想尽力修复它,尽管他仍然很沮丧的情况下,他给了我一个机会。我告诉他,“也许我确实有酗酒的问题。这次我真的会辞职并将它。我想要更好的学习这个。”And so every event that we had come to I told everybody no. Im not drinking, I quit. Blah blah.
*第二个故事我发泄*
(我保证这所有连接到我的出现你只需要背景故事lol)
现在它或许. .7 . .现在我们回到同样的模式。缺乏与他的努力,我被误解。彼此没有质量的时间了。他已经经历很多的事情我一直努力做出更好的。自今年2月以来他一直失业,他不是想找工作,因为他现在已经处理瘟疫接管他的头皮银屑病,皮肤,指甲和一切。他郁闷了几个月,只是坐在家里,整天玩电子游戏。他是不安全的,感觉尴尬如果他试图回到找工作并获得采访。对他,我感觉。 I understood. I took care of him. I was also unemployed at the time and months before that, actually when we broke up in October last year, I lost my job due to being laid off from the pandemic. I searched around for jobs for months and finally landed a good job at the end of April (just in time for his birthday), for great pay and just about 5-10 mins from me. I was happy, I even started going to the gym and really worked on myself. I even bought him a whole pc setup. The desk, the chair and some new headphones. He had the pc already (which I won for him in a raffle) and monitors he has already. It was great. He loved it. Anyways those few months was great. Everything was going good until our relationship kind of slipped up. I was starting to do everything by myself again. All he would pay attention to was the video games and I was sick of it. Come to find out he was playing with some girl on one of these games. Almost every day that I had no aware of. I confronted him about it and he said "ok fine. Im not gonna argue with you about. If you dont like it then ok". Which means what? I was assuming he wasnt going to play or make conversation with her but he still did continuously. Knowing that I know and how I felt about it along with how i felt about our relationship slowly going sideways again. And so because I felt he didn't care and wasn't taking my feelings into consideration. I slowly started to drink again. I broke my promise. I know. To myself. And him. But I was angry. And so stressed out with our relationship. If he was doing whatever. I was going to do it too. Also during this time I had lost my job again due to my company not having much work to do for me. So now I am behind on bills, and in debt and so much more... anyways,
第三次出现我们有另一个孩子的生日他朋友的参加。我决定去喝酒。我想说这是9月初的某个时候。我喝龙舌兰酒,虽然我是喝的有点多,我能够控制我的喝酒。年底初夜是一个模糊但我知道和持续时间比我通常做lol甚至能告诉我男朋友我准备回家. .之前或之后我吐了…但是是的。第二天早上他迹象感到沮丧,但我不管。我不是疯狂的行动或尴尬。我想我处理得很好。
后我们有一个争吵也许几周后我带他和他长大我打破我的诺言。但我只有这样做因为他以前没考虑我的感受!他慢慢地不再关心的关系。我只是想放松!在讨论之后,仅此而已。
上次之后,我喝了我只是随便喝在家与家人或自己。也许真正的或一些烧酒,龙舌兰酒一晚。但我没有像任何东西。我在浴室里睡着一个晚上tho所以我不认为他太开心。
现在啊。上周末我最后一次出现是在周六。(im试图呼吸我发泄这一个…)这是他母亲文化祝福仪式。我们亚洲我们有僧侣来保佑他父母的婚姻。我没有确定我想喝酒因为我前一天喝和我妈妈和她的朋友们一点点但早期回家所以我可以早起的仪式。我的胃有点不舒服所以我没有真的想。但是我男朋友的妹妹. .邀请他babymother房子。她是僧侣们离开后,仪式的已经结束了。但我必须假装我很好和她的存在。 Now Im not bitter, and I don't care for her. But I did feel some type of way about her being there for something that should only be friends and family. Unless it didn't have anything to do with his daughter (which she could have just dropped off if my boyfriend wanted her there), I felt she didn't need to be there. Once again I felt I wasnt taken into consideration. And even though he wasn't the one to invite her and I really don't have a say in who should be invited because that is his family, why wasn't I slightly even considered about? Anyways, she left after staying for a couple hours. And we started drinking. Everything was fine and dandy. I checked on him like I usually do since he doesn't really hang around with me.. I was fine one minute, the next.. everything terrible has gone wrong. I completely blacked out. I guess his babymother had came back that night to hang out. Mind you this is all just friends and family. I was now bothered by it because why is she even here lol. And because of all the stress that I have been bottling in for so long, with our relationship, and things I have been dealing with on my own in my life, and how I felt about her being there.. I went absolutely crazy. I didnt know anything of what I did or what I woke up from my blackout. Heres what happened..
我想这一切都始于我看到或发现他babymother回来挂出来。有人告诉我我哭得很伤心,她绊倒她,使其成为一个大问题,她甚至tho他们什么也没有做或真正的接触。我是醉酒,咄咄逼人。我故意打翻了桌上的饮料,所以一些十几岁的孩子,在那里,他的侄女他们去给我上楼,我记得当我从停电略醒来。我改变了我的衣服,运动裤和背心,所以我不记得改变但他们不让我出了房间。他们阻止我回到楼下,因为我想我太醉他们只是想让我呆在我的房间所以我不带来麻烦。(哦我忘了说,我们与家人生活),但不管怎样我还是很沮丧我猜他babymother存在更加心烦意乱,他们不让我下楼。(他neices十三四岁)我想我打了一个他们想要的,我是说一些令人讨厌的和不恰当的,我告诉他们我要跳出窗口如果他们不会让我走的。我猜其中一个用我的电话打给我妈妈来接我,他们叫他的妹妹因为我是疯了。像真的疯了。 And so I guess I finally was able to go downstairs and (oh I also forgot to mention that he was also drinking. And he doesnt drink, so he was also very drunk at the time), I guess I got into his face, and he pushed me and I fell and tripped over something. Mind you this is all in front of everyone and his friends. I guess I tried to take my karaoke machine that they were using but failed to. Now I don't remember how I got outside but I was outside barefoot and I was so angry that I climbed on top of his car, in the rain, trying to smash his windshield with my hand and my arm as hard as I could saying, "Why why why." Thats when I ran into his sister and her friend, which is the mother of one of the girls that was also upstairs. My mom got there when all this happened outside and his sister dragged me to her to get into the car. I was sobbing and still screaming about whatever I was feeling. I finally got home to my moms house and I was sitting there balling my eyes out questioning myself. Repeating out to her saying that I loved him, why doesnt anybody care, why doesnt he love me, why am I always the bad person. All this stuff.
第二天早上. .我觉得绝对的,完全的垃圾。我心里难受的,我的手和手臂受伤,我只记得稍微发生了什么。我不知道我所做的,直到周一当我决定获得清晰的从他的妹妹。她告诉我之后,我的心沉了下去。
我有什么问题。严重! !这可能是最坏的最严重的停电醉酒经历我经历过的。我从没想过我会有像我如何做。这样做孩子们,说不合适的东西,试图去窗外,下楼去愚弄我自己更多。我想我甚至向别人扔鱼酱。喜欢啊。我非常讨厌我自己。我没睡觉或吃东西。如果我睡觉我睡的时间表都是一团糟所以我大多在夜间和白天睡觉。 I been depressed ever since this happened and once again I have made made a fool out of myself because of not being able to control my drinking. Fine one min, doing something crazy while blacked out the next. And I just wanna say I was never like this beforehand, last year and so on. I used to be able to drink and be able to hang but no matter how many times I have tried to limit myself and tell myself to just have a good time dont push it, it never works out. Along with so much happening in my life already- losing my job once again, being so behind on my bills, and in debt, my credit score going down, not to mention that now that my boyfriend and I have broken up because of this, I am back at my moms but It don't feel the same. It doesn't feel like home. She made my room into a stroage room/her closet, and moved the furniture around. All of my things are still currently at his house along with my cats that I cant bring to my moms because she had just gotten rid of the fleas that my cats had when I brought them over to visit, and I don't know if they're fully gone to bring them back over. Not to mention that my mom has been using my car since February because shes been without a car since and I let her use mine while I was using my boyfriends because he didnt need it for work or anything so I was using his car when I was working at the time. But now she wants to fully take over my car in no regards that the car is mine? Like.. Im obviously going to need my car back for a job I been trying to get. I am just going crazy and don't know what to do with myself. I won't forgive myself this time and Im sure my boyfriend won't either. We actually havent spoken at all since the occurrence, until I decided to send him a long voice memo yesterday (tuesday) apologizing and some other stuff. All he replied was "You’re not allowed here anymore. I’ll drop off your stuff when I have time." My heart hurts. His family probably hates me. I never thought I would become aggressive like I did and let something like that bother me. I don't want to blame the alcohol but you how could I have known what I was doing. When your so drunk like that and have your emotions take control of you, how can you stop somebody. And what Im even more hurt about is the fact that they just had some kids to bring me upstairs instead of my boyfriend himself or a family member. I wish somebody could have just pulled me aside to calm me down and talk to me instead of making feel and look even crazier. I just don't know what to do and honestly.. what I did is hurting me more than the breakup. I have never regretted anything more than this. Its absolutely killing me. I love my boyfriend more than ever, I can't picture being with anyone else, I would do anything and take a bullet for him. And as much as our relationship has been toxic, I go crazy not being able to be with him right now. But this is really all on me now. This is my fault. But in my heart I wish it would have been different if someone just cared enough. I will seem like the villain and the bad guy for now because of what I have done. But I was misunderstood... no one cared... No one will see how I felt or what I was going through to begin with....
感谢您的阅读,如果你做阅读。我知道这是很多的。我需要发泄,因为我真的没有。没有朋友,没有人转向可依靠的肩膀……但我会不断战胜自己对这种情况,我不会感觉好。现在没有我的男朋友在我怀里连同一切发生在我的生活. .我不知道我将感觉好。我不知道如何处理自己……
s.o.s.组织)向公众我感觉也许会更容易结束我的生命。

我很少有停电近年来喝,我控制了我的酒精消费流行,我认为我和酒精的关系是越来越好,,,但有时我只是松散的控制需要多少喝我,我是否应该继续喝。我最近非常醉了我的生日聚会,我希望我有一个时间机器做。我告诉相当令人不快的事情我的姐姐只是想帮助我,我告诉我的朋友离开我独自一人,我真的不记得或者知道我是如此糟糕的原因。有这家伙(im成但没有人知道),我真的去了,我们做两次(我的朋友告诉我因为我显然不记得),我感到感到尴尬,因为每个人都看到,我不希望每个人都知道我的商务,等他们说这是相互的,但仍我非常窘迫。我也花了一些时间与我的客人和我认为这是非常错误的部分。他们告诉我他们仍然有一个很好的时间,但我还是有这么多的遗憾,我想办法原谅自己,我想这是其中一个方面,只是告诉我的故事。

我讨厌我自己。我总是喝太多。我真的知道我所有的朋友和家人是不能处理他们的酒的人。我需要停止喝酒,但是这样很难因为我周围的每个人都能喝不滥用它。似乎只有我一个人在这,我就会感到很孤独。我做了很多事情困扰着我,他们真的玩每次都在我的脑海里有一个默哀。有一段时间,我想我是喝,因为我所有的不好的经历和宿醉杀了我的思想。但是几天前,又一次我去一个聚会浪费。结束的晚上就是模糊的。我做了很多东西我很遗憾但是让我感触最深的是这些东西。 I first said I said something really messed up to my friend's crush. I said I was sorry but I honestly am so dumb for that and I feel horrible. Then I went up front waiting for my ride and literally was on the floor, people were picking me up. I went to the neighbor's house and have no idea what I was doing there but I didn't go inside luckily. I don't even know how I got to the place where I slept. I just don't know what happened in some parts and that drives me crazy. I don't know what I did or said. I also don't know what happened to my body. It's been a few days but I am going insane just playing this night in my head. I overanalyze every single situation in my life already, but the fact that I don't know what happened is making me livid. I'm trying to forgive myself for this and all those other times but honestly, all these embarrassing drunken moments make me want to end it.

我一直打喝非常困难的在过去的几年里…。甚至更多!我最终在医院两天前喝半瓶杜松子酒和一瓶酒在约2小时!我摔倒了,敲了敲门,我设法叫救护车,然后拒绝了和他们一起去。当他们送我去医院我出院没有头部受伤被缝补。我觉得很尴尬,这是完成当我的两个孩子都是在床上。现在我很惭愧:- (

我没有每说但我确实有一个酗酒的关系问题。我37岁,有一个几乎一生的约会和历史完全浪费在第一个晚上。我上一次恋爱是一年,最后被我的一个最长一年半,是的,第一天晚上我喝的太多了,但他仍然很冷静的令人尴尬的自己在这个过程中,他甚至停留在我身边带我第二天汤。但是那天晚上我遇到有人经过一年就像我提到的没有约会任何人我遇到了一个约会网站他年轻十岁,我想很不成熟。他来我的地方,在他抵达之前我已经喝一半的半瓶伏特加(中等大小)。接下来我知道我浪费了我们做爱以来最糟糕的性他得到超级没有安全感和我谈了很多关于胡说,我的问题和我的过去,通常讲座!不管怎样,他完成了他的生意(在一些时间,我不会得到任何东西因为我的当前状态)并立即离开没有说再见。我不仅觉得废话第二天,但我感觉自己像个失败者,丑陋的,可怜的,你的名字。我想陪伴但我不知道为什么我觉得我要喝舒适债券与男性。

所以我倾向于这个问题每隔一段时间,当我在做我的饮酒(尤其是除草的时候),我注意到大流行以来,我已经糟糕了。我倾向于在我男朋友生气不花时间与我或者不想出去喝酒。他是一个电脑游戏迷,我通常不生气他玩但有时当我醉了一切都走下坡路了。我猜这是事实我不喝酒但同时我希望我有一个理性的声音在我的脑海里告诉我下一个等级。我们不要总是喝在一起,他并不总是告诉我一切等等。但是当我喝醉,我开始思考他不是做的事情和我希望他做的事情。在某种程度上这是一个非常自私的心态,就好像我忘记了他为我做的好事。我害怕当我得到这样的因为就像玩轮盘赌,不知道什么样的那天晚上喝醉了我会。我是快乐和寒冷醉酒或疯狂的女朋友喝醉了。例如昨晚当我不小心玩断路器盒,关掉他的电脑(其实我不知道第一个开关是要做的,但是我也不知道为什么我甚至想到了吗?就好像一个疯狂的女朋友接管了我的个性。 I don’t know what came over me but I’m still in disbelief as to why I did that. me and my bf made up and I told him I’ll work on it but im afraid of it happening again. I just wish I was always that chill drunk but like I said it’s like a game of roulette and I can’t predict my drunk emotions. I really hope the next time I can control my emotions better. Because I like to drink and I don’t want to have to stop because I can’t control my emotional behavior. I’m sure it has something to do with my overall health, the potency of the alcohol and how crossfaded I get but I hate replaying my embarrassing moments in my head and wishing I can go back in time and never do them. I just want to move on and forgive myself. But It’s so hard especially when I keep repeating them. As a tomboy growing up, I really don’t want to turn into a nightmare girlfriend lol

嗨。我目前在一些非常尴尬,我周五。我正在经历离婚。上周,我作了一次神奇的日期与这个令人难以置信的热的家伙我伟大的化学。不幸的是,我和姐妹们周五停电喝醉了一个特别粗糙,显然这家伙短信或电话。我记得他发短信我,我吓唬他。我删除从我的手机当我还喝醉了,不知道我做了什么或说。第二天早上我道歉,但我知道我永远也不会再见到他。我这样一个傻瓜,觉得很愚蠢和羞愧,生自己的气,因为她毁了什么可能是一个有趣的事情。需要一些帮助自我宽恕。

我很感谢所有的帖子,它帮助我很多,所以我想分享我的故事。我是一个酒鬼两年了。最近,我与另外两人搬到一个新公寓。他们都是很好的,我感觉很受欢迎的。四天后我朝着我们去了一个派对。我很醉了……我什么都不记得。但是,事实证明,我告诉我的新室友对我的瘾。我们有非常诚实,但也为embarras说话。他们现在知道我上瘾。 I still don't know what went down that evening. I'm afraid of all the embarrasing things I did or if I might sexually harassed someone. I begged my romemates not to tell me anything, it would have ruined me. Even though I don't know what happened, I'm feeling so guilty and bad. I ruined my whole life because of alcoholism. Please don't do what I did. Please get help
英语不是我的母语,所以请与我裸露的

我真的有一个尴尬的醉酒的夜晚,这是一个官方党与许多建筑师、规划师,等等,我是一个新鲜的21岁女性和许多人一样,这是我第一次正式聚会,我做了一个很大的错误,因为我喝了很多的饮料是免费的,直到我完全空白,在我的记忆中我看到一些自己在男厕所问一些官员来帮助我的衣服,我穿了一件连身衣那一天,我问一个人打电话给我的朋友带我回家,我还是推荐真热,我想看着色情手淫,我不记得我是否在公共场合自慰,如果我有它每天困扰着我。我说我实习公司的官员之一,虽然我们是在我经过气体,这是秀大声。还有一张图片是我删除我的内裤弄湿时,携带它,谈论它的人,我睡在地板上有些人帮助了我。我竞选的时候吐一些组织和很多。
我毁了自己因为酒精的那一天,我不能忘记已经一年多,有时我感觉结束我的生命,这是我的错,是我,我很惭愧,我是一个白痴。

我一直在原谅自己一段时间的醉酒行为我做了两个月。我和我的男朋友和我喝一个晚上宵禁,但搞砸了,让它回家,所以他带我进他的家去见他的妈妈,看看我可以过夜,介意你他从未让任何人去见他的妈妈除了我,让我感觉更糟,但无论如何我要昏倒了,当我见到她,我不穿内衣(个人选择)显然脱了裤子,让她纹身在我的大腿上。她和他的阿姨看到我的私人区域,我不记得,我还有过夜,但我不好意思那天晚上我和我的男朋友。我跟她第二天清醒并道歉,她欣赏,我们好吧。几周后我和他又喝酒了,我们决定在他家过夜,我记得拉到他的房子,我们停在了一段时间,我想去睡觉,但我的男朋友还是想喝喝,这是最后一次我记得。第二天早上我醒来在他家里没有裤子,给我一条毯子。现在,他的床在客厅里公开,每个人都走了。我发现我的裤子外面的卡车,我穿上,回去。他在这次虽然和她妈妈告诉我,他的爸爸和他的阿姨和哥哥看见我半裸,早上去上班时,记得我不穿内衣,所以他们看到的一切!我完全是蒙羞。 I talked to her again later that day and she was furious, she forgave me but it wasn’t the same. Let’s just say one more thing happened to where as I was sober but still got the blame. My boyfriend laid his hands on me one night while he was blacked out at her house, she was telling me that it wasn’t who he is, this and that (although she tells me the drunk stuff I did to her is who I am and I don’t blame her but it’s not true, I never liked alcohol 6 months ago and I never meant to harm anyone, I always apologized.) and she called the cops on him, they couldn’t find him so they left (he was under the bed that whole time lmao) but anyways I didn’t wanna be there when he woke up so I called my cousin to pick me up, I told her what happened and told her not to tell anyone. She told her boyfriend and he got mad mine laid my hands on me so he went up and hit my boyfriends moms car! I told him to get in wtf was he doin that wasn’t my boyfriends car.. even made him go back and apologize but she was mad. She thought we were trying to bash out her car windows but he didn’t and I had no idea he was gonna do that. I am no longer allowed near her house and I know her dislike for me is strong. I’m a good person, his family thinks that I’m just a drunk and always blames me for my boyfriends drunk behavior also but that’s not the case. I got a job again, quit drinking but it don’t do any good with them, they don’t care. Just sucks it had to be like that. Sucks I had to drink. Anyways drinking led to those embarrassing and shameful events, I regret it a lot. I wish they knew that wasn’t who I am. I wish I never done those things. I still feel so shitty.

需要一些帮助,有人使我平静下来……我喝适度和朋友在周末和很少有问题。我不认为自己是一个酒鬼,有时我去几个月不喝水,有时我喝连续3天。这非常参差不齐,取决于场合(婚礼,朋友在城里,等)过一段时间(大约一年一次)我棕色的,而在我的家乡市中心。所以我说我住在一个小镇,我通常做事情后悔,因为每个人都知道我和我的家人。无论如何,最近我非常醉了市区,只记得时刻。我记得有一个谈话和另外一个年纪大的女人是一个家庭的朋友,我不知道。我记得我喝醉了一直在问同样的问题一次又一次,她告诉我独自离开她,她告诉我,我是一个白痴。我不记得我说/做了什么让她如此心烦意乱,但我知道她不是醉酒使它更糟。我真的希望我没有对她做任何不适当的,因为这是不喜欢我。 But I cant remember fully. My girlfriend was in the same bar, but across the way so I feel like if it was something inappropriate it would have caused a scene and my girlfriend would have been mad at me. After I got yelled at I went up to another couple and was in this girls face and she kept backing up and I kept trying to talk to her and she told me to back away. The music was super loud and I was just trying to talk but I think she thought I was the weirdest guy in the planet as my face inched closer as she kept backing away. Turns out we have mutual friends and this was the first time they met me...great. I can't function for some time when this happens. It replays in my head for days and weeks after. I am banking on the fact that they know deep down I don't typically act like that and that I am a good person, but I just don't know. I can't get over it and I'm afraid to bring it up to anyone just incase they end up revealing more bad things I did and then I have to start all over with the shame and guilt. Thanks in advance...

,只是想分享在这里我一直感觉如此屈辱和生病我喝醉了。我刚刚得到了一个全新的开始,搬家和一份新工作,一切都进展顺利,直到我开始在工作中欺负。我试图保持低着头,什么也说不出来,但它如此糟糕我签署了病假。我只是一片混乱,我真的认为我有一个工作生活,这是与当地的委员会,但没有工作的事情。他们让我做一个Facebook与他们保持联系。我删除了信使,因为它是常数,我不能逃避。那天晚上,环领导人试图朋友我,我忽略了它,下一分钟她家人想朋友我。我很伤只是想独处,我最终触及了喝,只是啤酒但是我毁了,我开始发布的欺凌喝醉了,说我女儿爸爸死了,希望人们不再问她爸爸,其他事情说我是病假,想要独处,我只是不好意思看我说什么。早上当我醒来的时候我很尴尬,我觉得我是被我吞下这枚诱饵,现在已经完成自己的屁股,看起来像一个完全的螺母的工作。我从来没有想要一个账户。 I quickly deleted the account, wrapped up my work stuff, posted it with my notice saying my health couldn't take it. I suffer from depression and anxiety, so can get really triggered and alcohol makes it so much worse I don't know why I drink. I basically ran away I was so embarrassed. I can't believe I let it get to me and now I look like a total fool because of my drinking. I'm 36 and I'm. So embarrassed what I am going to tell people why I left my job. My so called friend must've seen the posts (I didn't put many people due to management on there) he was so abrupt the next day and cancelled to see me. Most friends were supportive and said to just leave. But because of the job, alot of so called friends said I was being sensitive and to stick it out. Well I tried that and then made an ass of myself. Just wish I could run away

所以那天晚上我的朋友的生日聚会,他们有一个派对巴士去不同的酒吧和真的很好玩!我有一个爆炸我的男朋友有一个爆炸但是…我喝饮料,镜头和混合太多的饮料,所以我基本上就失去了知觉。我们得到了他们的房子和我们也许10分钟,我开始放声大哭我的眼睛因为某些原因我不知道。这经常发生当我喝醉,真的很尴尬。我只记得外面得到空气w我的朋友就是这样。我男朋友说他认为只有少数人看到我,但我不知道这是完全正确的,我认为他是想我的感情。但是我超级尴尬,我觉得我可能毁了。在上面,他的妈妈看到我哭闹....啊我讨厌这种感觉,我不想再喝!

你好,
我挣扎在一个喝醉酒的愚蠢的晚上。
我是一个新妈妈的10月,我在一个非常有毒的自恋与我的孩子的父亲,我觉得我做的很好大多数时候分手但有些天我可以看到我还没有允许我自我愈合和交易。(我离开了他我怀孕7个月时)无论如何,我刚开始与一个朋友我还没有与一段时间由于我前夫不喜欢她的原因有很多,她的着装和有点疯狂,但她的诚实和开放。不管怎样我又说跟她出去玩,4的5倍我们喝挂了。2的4倍我秀锤我昏倒了,忘记了大部分的晚上,第一天晚上不是太坏我是她的一个朋友,晚上有点粗鲁。但是正好是星期一的晚上,和我太太太醉了,我又一次粗鲁地对待她的一个朋友,长话短说,他打我,我不是我认为可能不是最好的,但就像我说我涂黑的晚上我不记得全部细节,但最大的可能是除了我那么讨厌的一整夜,那么多讽刺,和奇怪的蹩脚的笑话,我性感的朋友也触及人她看。我不知道我怎么打他,但我相信这只是令人不安。一旦我意识到我他妈的做了什么,我叫我的朋友进我的房间关上门,告诉她嘿我点击你的家伙。我很抱歉。她刷像没关系。但这真的不是,他们离开后不久,现在我的朋友没有跟我天。 I first off was a wild drunk, second off hit on the dude she is all about , and was so excited for me to meet and I made a complete ass of myself. I feel so ashamed because first off I hate making mistakes like this because I am a mother, I hate that I allowed myself to get like this yet again like I’m 19 again. I have been over thinking the whole night for the last few days I just feel like an awful shitty person. I really just don’t know my alcohol limit after having a child less than a year ago and my friends limit is sooo high I can’t keep up and when I try I do the most stupidest shit. All I keep thinking about is what I kinda shit I said that I don’t remember , and wow what is she thinking about and what the other 2 people we’re thinking. I am my hardest critic I just feel like an over all awful person, and just trashy as all hell. I know in sometime it won’t hit me like it is now, but I just don’t know how to cope properly with it all. I do know that like I stated I don’t know my limit and that is a huge sign for me to really take a break, like I said it’s only been 2 times that I got like this for years but , wow do I ever just feel like an awful horrible person.

heyy,昨晚我和我的兄弟21很醉了但我是拥有这样一个伟大的时间。我直但我跳舞的女孩吻了我,告诉我她不但是在吻我说抱歉我直。后,当我和别人跳舞她生我的气了。我没有想太多关于它我只是醒来,我哥哥告诉我我们如何当着所有人的面亲吻像朋友和家人尤其是阿姨和表弟。我真的希望他们不会判断我,我感到很羞愧。我甚至不认为这是坏到我哥哥告诉我,每个人都看到它。我希望我没有女孩。我不知道该做什么。

我刚和我的男朋友分手,因为他打我给我留下一个蓝色的眼睛变得如此沮丧的一个混合酒精出去和我的朋友去了朋友年代房子他们大声说我最终在封闭的区域安全被称为思维是一个小偷.peed在他的沙发上,因为我现在不能走,我感觉死亡因为是人在房子里。我遭受抑郁很长一段时间是非常糟糕的事情醉牵引时间辞职,我甚至失去了我的电话。我不知道我在这边.强调,我想重新开始但事情我狩猎我。我甚至不能睡觉。我希望他们没有接受视频.iv决定远离酒精解决我的生活.只是担心他们会不会原谅我

你好玛丽,
我刚意识到我只评论你的回复,没有发送一个回复。我的职位是5月29日,如果可以删除的话就太好了。感谢你创建一个平台,每个人都可以表达自己的意见和感觉验证。
谢谢你！
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你好,
我想删除评论我发表在这里。我想忘记的情况一次
谢谢

我甚至不知道从哪里开始……我开始停电喝醉了自2014年以来,它得到了很糟糕我醒来害怕和困惑之前发生什么事的说. .它导致我的关系问题,与我的合作伙伴和朋友。我觉得我的朋友把它更少的困难,因为他们知道我但对陌生人看着我与这个女孩肯定喜欢wtf是错误的(在my.opinion),其怪异的,因为我将完全好,酒精就打我的地方,我曾经认为这是香烟结合酒精但有时我甚至不吸烟,所以idk是什么…我戒了酒大约3年前,我只喝生日会有1 - 2杯酒庆祝一下但我避免酒精严重,开始关注自己是涂料真的扮演了一个影响我的心理健康及其超级尴尬的发现你所做的事情当你昏过去了。我被告知似乎拥有了另一个人因为我不像我自己开始摇摆不定,到处都下降。我说没有任何意义。那天我出去和我的伙伴一个房子变暖,我随便喝要热身(我不知道这些人有社交焦虑症)冷却器喝,因为我没有想要超级粉碎和我吃了屎吨食品在我到那里之前……周围的照片开始,我一直在说“不”,然后最终屈服于他们…但让他们倒真的小镜头……我最终涂料,发现我可能跌到地上6 - 7次可能使自己看起来像个傻子,我真的不好意思,这是我的男朋友真的很亲密的朋友,所以他们认为我肯定对我来说很重要…idk怎么办我现在看到他们/他们....羞于启齿我很难过,我把我的男朋友在这种情况下……我告诉他,当我们聚在一起,我是一个非常糟糕的喝醉了,这就是为什么我真的不喝酒,但我不认为他当真当我告诉他……我对这整个感觉很糟糕的情况……他说他不是疯了但是我相信他是我自己只是做了一个傻瓜在他的朋友面前,只是会议我. .

我感到很尴尬。需要这个。昨晚我出去庆祝一下,有一个巨型玛格在晚餐。我完全是好当我们离开时,开始觉得有人开车送我们到第二位置。我的朋友点了饮料在第二个位置和我有一些。突然我并不好。我不记得支付,上车的时候,即将回家,或者得到回到我的公寓。我讨厌这么多。然后最糟糕的事情发生了。我尿床。 thankfully i live alone and not a soul knows this about me. i plan on taking it to the grave. i’m so embarrassed and no one even knows but i’m my worst critic. last night has me thinking of giving up alcohol. i don’t drink often and i’ve only ever been drunk maybe six times bc i have a fear of losing control (hence why i’m so SO ashamed of this incident). i haven’t cried about it but i feel like i need to. blacking out from drinking is the scariest thing for me and i don’t know what to do.