Forgiving Yourself for Embarrassing Drunken Behavior

I was embarrassingly drunk last night at a work party and it has been eating at me.
I am so glad for this article and all the comments; very helpful for me to deal with my embarrassment feelings.
Thank you.

REGRETS for the past two years. I really need help on this. I have deep regrets over my drunken behavior. First, I exposed my HIV positive status before a multitude of villagers and became a laughing stock. I sank in depression and got into more drinking. I once insulted a family friend, one who is my dad's agemate and one who assisted my family in planning for her wedding as a wedding committee chairman. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to start. Never been to my village ever since. Oh, what do I do? Can I be forgiven?? my reputation that was good is spoilt. Please I need an advice.

Thanks for sharing everyone. I've been embarrassing myself for the past 12 years and alcohol has caused me to spend a lot of time in juvie/jail. Every single bad decision I've ever made has been due to alcohol. The time before last (March 2018) I got so drunk that I started hitting on several men while at a party with my boyfriend of 8 years and our 4 kids. I was hitting on married men too and while their wives were there ? although I don't think any of them heard me. My boyfriend nearly left me but his love for my true self would not let him. I feel so bad for him but I can't let him go b.c I feel that I will die alone if I do and I don't even have friends or family because I sabotage all relationships while drunk :'( the last time I drank was about two months ago all alone at home and I don't remember a single thing. I just woke up SOAKED with urine :-( my 2 year old was in the bed with me and I peed so much that the stain almost covers the queen mattress. I just thank the highest power that my boyfriend wasn't here to witness due to being out with his friend. I have a history of flipping out on him when I'm drunk and I don't know why bc. I love that man more than anything in this world. All I know is that I have to leave drunkenness in the past (I'm 26) and I'm almost 1000% sure I can do it b c I'm tired of hating myself and ruining my own life. Thank God my kids haven't felt the full effect of it.. I have more stories fo anyone who needs to hear some more in order to feel better

星期五下午我和同事出去了a couple of drinks, which ended up turning into 4 glasses of wine and three shots. Unfortunately, I am one of those drinkers that cannot stop once I start, so I kept going. When I got home, I decided to take a walk around the neighborhood and ended up having drunken conversations with three different neighbors. My husband told me that I was swearing in front of my one neighbors kids. I don't remember any of this. This was the first time that I drank in a year, because I was pregnant and had our second child. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed. I am going to go and apologize to her, but I feel like everyone is now going to think I am the neighborhood drunk because of one stupid day. I am definitely not drinking anymore because it doesn't seem to result in any fun for me anymore, just shame and embarrassment.

一个星期前我去starte的同事聚会d around 5 pm. I started drinking right when I got there and everything was going good until the party was coming to an end around 10 pm. When I got into the taxi to head back home, I called one of my friends to see if he wanted to go out. He said yes and he will pick me up from my house. I was pretty drunk when he came to pick me up, but I know I was acting okay because I remember everything. When we arrived at the bar, that's when I remember I started to get bad. I'm having flashbacks about seeing people I knew at the bar, but not remembering how I was acting or what I was saying. I know I am a very generous person when I am drinking and I remember when I saw people I knew, I would offer to buy them a drink. One part of the night I do remember is I was buying drinks at the bar for someone and my card got declined. Apparently, I had made too many transactions on my card that day and my bank decided to cut me off. I am stressing very bad about my behavior this night for many reasons. First, I've lived in this town for a long time and have been know to be "that guy" at the bar who is always super drunk. Second, a large portion of the people that live in this town go to the place I work at and I remember seeing a lot of them that night. Third, I have had a lot of problems with alcohol in my past. I have been known to do ridiculous things when I am blacked out and I'm pretty sure that this time was no different. My friend that I went to the bar with ending up leaving shortly after we arrived so he wasn't there that long. He called me the next day to make sure I got home okay because he said I was "real fucked up" and was "being real generous towards people by buying them drinks." The thing I'm worried about is that I can't remember what time my card got declined and I'm pretty sure I stayed at that bar until closing time at 1:30 a.m., so I'm hoping that I didn't do anything too bad after that happened. Something small like that can trigger me to act completely different when I am intoxicated. The reason I am stressing so much is because it was such a long black out and I cannot remember how I acted or who saw me. I just know that I saw a lot of people I knew there and a lot of people I do know, go to this bar every weekend. It's been over a week and I haven't drank since and do not plan to. I'm worried though because this has happened before and I wouldn't drink for a few months, but then repeat this behavior after I have gotten over it. This has happened too many times and I'm now 28 years old and sick of feeling the shame and embarrassment of things I do when I am drinking. Maybe I am just overthinking it because I had so much of a blackout that I am just assuming the worst had happened. Whatever the case may be, I am tired of being that drunk idiot at the bar and feeling so humiliated that I never want to show my face in public again. I'm almost too scared to know what happened that night because I am afraid of what people are going to say. This is not how I want to be remembered.

I am dying of shame and guilt right now. My husbands family were down for my birthday and I had too much to drink. My husband accused me of hitting on his friend, I don’t think I did. But then I said so many horrible things to my husband and his family, I screamed and swore and just said the most degrading things. My husbands family have said if he doesn’t leave me they will disown him. Its 5 days in and I’m still having extreme anxiety over my behaviour. I can’t sleep because every time I close my eyes, I get flashbacks. I feel nauseous and sick. I’m not that person and have no idea how to deal with knowing I acted in such a way. I’ve sworn off alcohol now.

I’m so ashamed as well. I mix with hard liquor knowing that it would turn me crazy. And I’m only crazy toward my boyfriend that I’ve been with for 8 years. I get so crazy and was trying to fight him in front of the whole party for 4th of July at my best friends house. I feel so sad and disgusting at myself for this. I really want to quit drinking and I am going to do I hope I can be strong and not give up. Getting drunk does not benefit me and it makes the only man I love to hate me and not talk to me. I hope we will mend and I hope I can be strong and not drink again.

Yesterday I was with my boyfriend at a friend's house drinking heavily as we usually do. I had just gotten out of work and had not had much to eat all day. I was wasted but nothing too bad, just loud and a little obnoxious. Everything was fine until we got into the uber. We had been in the pool all day and when the uber arrived I got in with just my bikini top and shorts...not too bad right? (I have no recollection of this my boyfriend had to inform me of everything from this point on) Apparently I thought it would be cute to show my boobs and try and get on top of my boyfriend in the backseat. Stupid drunk, loud and slurred words. Saying I wanted to fuck him and how horny I was. Then when we finally got home of course all of our neighbors were out chatting it up. Then I get out of the car looking like a real piece of shit trying to jump on top of my boyfriend. I embarrassed my boyfriend and now I am mortified. Completely disgusted with myself. Alcohol has always caused me problems in life but for some reason I still drink. Why do I do this to myself?

Wow! I'm glad I found you guys! I have an anxiety for the past year about huge mess up at the block party last Summer! It was our second year in the neighborhood and nobody really knows us. I don't usually drink that much I had some wine and my husband kept telling me to stop drinking but this lady kept giving me jello shots this is when everything went to shits. On top of being depressed over some very sensitive matter I got drunk and made stupid desicions like saying stupid shit, almost kissing that lady on the lips, running from my husband and hiding from him etc to the point when one of the neighbors threatened to call the cops. I feel super embarrassed and I was not gonna attend this year because nobody would even say hello to me around here, but they never send an invitation. So now I just want to die from embarrassment. I wish I was just like Frank from '"shameless" though but I'm not....it seems like I messed up more then anybody else here. I guess people where i live are super judgemental but I bet they too messed up at least once in their life's, I know it's my actions and it's all my fault, and it was truly family gathering nobody even dances there though they hire a band. Never in my life I messed up that bad. I have to live with it now learn from it and just be careful with drinking alcohol.....

Today I feel awful. I had a date with a girl I have liked and she has been lovely to me and she was gorgeous! Finally after weeks of talking daily and connecting we arranged for a pub date. Me being so nervous due to meeting such a beautiful nicr woman I stupidly decided to buy 4 beers and pre drink 3 and have the forth in the taxi to her! Very silly decision I didn't eat either all day due to working and rushing to get ready.
I was half wasted when I met her and she was kind enough to have a bottle of wine waiting for me when I arrived. I grabbed the bottle and poured us 2 large glasses of wine and I guzzled it back in no time and again pouring another..... She was lovely and we were really connecting but something awful happened.
I blacked out drunk and came back to reality after 4 hours of not having a damn clue what happened. I woke up in the city alone in the street! I then looked down at my phone which had several miss calls from her and a Snapchat calling me "crazy and she is no longer interested" I replied asking why.... She then proceeded to tell me I had made a complete arse out of myself in the pub and to her and I left her alone in there! Apparantly ran back in over an hour later and then proceeded to talk madness to her. She blocked me on Snapchat and me still being drunk stupidly then decided to call her more than 10 times and I text her over 50 times ranging from explaining myself to being downright vile I can't even mention what I said to her..... i then proceeded to get more drunk sat in an alleyway and cried myself to the point I looked like I had a mental breakdown. People was approaching me asking if I needed help.
I ran home and cried to my family said silly things which they can't now let it leave their heads and I awoke this morning feeling so awful. That poor girl didn't deserve this behaviour at all. Not only did I ruin any chance with her but I said vile vile things and now i look completely insane to her. What I said is eating away at me as I can't forgive myself for what I said or how I acted to the poor girl.
I am now never going to drink yo that excess nor shall I even attempt another date until I get the help I need :(

我很惭愧我创建的场景last weekend. Got into a stupid competition with one of my friend. Drank so much that I don't remember anything. Didn't have the guts to face my friends the next day. I have lost self respect. More than anything I think that I have lost respect among my friends. How to overcome this feeling?

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I keep finding myself getting too drunk and doing regrettable, embarrassing things.
Last night I fell at the bar and had to be carried out by the bouncers cuz I was so wasted. A few weeks ago I got super wasted and went to bed and apparently woke up in the middle of the night and just started pissing on my friends feet who was sleeping on my couch. Another time I got wasted woke up in the middle of the night and pissed I’m the corner of my buddies living room.
的se were definitely my most regrettable things. I’ve never been a mean drunk or promiscuous but my problem is always just getting too drunk and sloppy losing balance slurring words and it happens often although most times that I drink it doesn’t happen; it still happens too much that I’ve thought about quitting alcohol all together but I have too much fun with it.
21 years old and still struggling to control the liquor and not let it control me.

I got incredibly drunk once in my public library right down the street from my house and started playing the music super loud on my laptop. One lady kindly asked me to turn it down to which I replied, "you'll be closing soon". Then another two people came up to me asking me to turn it down to which I said "what you gonna do about it!!!" To which the gentleman replied "I will call the sheriff's department" and then I just started saying "That's a low blow bro!" Over and over. I promptly gathered my things and left and then started insulting all the librarians as I walked out. Soooooo embarrassing in retrospect. I know that not as bad as some of these atories but I honestly love the library and was even thinking of working here cause it is such a beautiful location and I am a bibliophile. Probably not going to happen. O want to write a letter of apology to them library staff for my behavior.

Its difficult. Because for me if i get drunk but dont do anything wrong i still get the same shame as when in the past i have done bad things. I know that when i see drunk people either just being really drunk or are actually doing silly things. I pretty much forget about it straight away, it doesnt bother me. But when its me i get a sinking feeling of dread. Im more out going when i drink so worry about how people see me. Its strange i think most of the torturing we do to ourselves after by over thinking, just makes it worse than it is. But its hard not to think and feel this way

Me just mad e a a** out of myself this Saturday only in front of 2 of my cousins a couple accuaitences and talked stuff to my BF over the phone and oh yeah started calling family in mexico crying like a complete fool omg how embarrassing!!cussed my boyfriend out and etc so I feel bad now my cusin was like that why i dont like kicking it with you when your drunk you so aggresive and a mess !!that ticked me off because she a bigtime drunk more than me But yeah she the type to not even take care of me scre her any your good [moderated] you know forgive your self sweety and move on no one is perfect !!

Your stories haven't helped me feel better about my drunken stoopers. I have made a huge a** out of myself numerous times but this one incident beats them all. So me and my best friend at the time went to her brothers Halloween party. I have severe social anxiety and i tend to drink way more than I should if I'm around people I don't know. I didn't really embarrass myself at the party besides being a little loud and trying to get a gay guys number. Ugh. Anyways, the problem was when I got home. I don't remember anything. I woke up at 10am the next morning with a text from my friend, saying to delete my Snapchat story. What did I post?! I posted videos of me topless, saying really nasty, dirty, provocative things. I also posted 3 topless pictures of me. All my co-workers and friends were on my Snapchat. They all saw it. Even better, there were 12 screenshots of me! I quickly delwted everything Even though the damage was already done. I was so mortified. Best of all, I broke up with my bf a few weeks before this and his friend saw my snaps and told him all about it. Way to kick a horse while its down. I still cringe thinking about it.

Not to one up everyone, but I might take the cake on this. I'd like to start b adding I'm 6'5, avid gym goer and about 285 lbs. so, here it goes.
I wen with my girlfriend to a winery/brewery to meet her friends/parents for drinks and outdoor fun, seeing it was the first nice day of spring. We had a great afternoon, playing board games while drinking outside of this winery, about 10 of us. After a few hours we decided to go back o he friends house and say goodnight to her parents. So, I bought a case of beer and pizza for everyone, honestly, I wanted o make a good impression for the ppl that are close to the woman I have grown fond of. After I got back with her friends otdiwnd from picking up the pizza, my night changed forever. Now at this point I've probably had a dozen or so beers over a few hours with little amount of food. Her friends bf offered me a shot of Jack honey. While everyone is looking at me to take the celebratory shot, I didn't think at all if this was a bad idea. I took it, and another. That moment is the last moment I remember until I remember siting in the back of a cop car, being taken to a county prison. Thy night, I was told I tried jumping off a 40 foot balcony, pushed my gf, split my head open somehow, had my gf's friend chase me around town for 2 hours, trying to calm me down, I ripped a railing off a house, attempted to punch out a windshield(no f-ing idea) and verbally berated everyone. To boot, I was pulled over, driving the opposite direction from my house, earning my first DUI. It has been 1 week since this happened. Every time I think about this, the deepest amount of depression sets in. My girlfriend, who I adore imennsley, has her friends not talking to her, and haven't said to her she should break up oth me, but it doesn't need to be said. I have treated this girl like my queen, with respect and honesty, aside of a bad 3 hour time frame. I don't know how to get over this, she breaks down crying every few hours, she doesn't want us to break up, but even tho I feel I was drugged or something and can't remember any of this, it will be the reasocso man things happen differently in my life. I feel like a complete waste of life. But letting er go will ply hurt her more and I know I'm far better of a man than got I was that night. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated.Nate.diehl50@yahoo.com

我有一些尴尬的醉酒的时刻,佤邦nt to share because it might help me. We had a uni class event and I was out with my whole cohort. I got very sloppy drunk. A lot of the night is gone from my memory. But what I do remember is clinging onto a guy for a lot of the night. I don’t know how far things went. But I got kicked out of the pub and he messaged me asking if I got home ok. I looked at his fb profile and it turns out he is married. Everyone in the class knew this but I’m new so I didn’t. A lot of the rest I don’t remember but all bad I’m sure. Sos.

我在我的朋友gatho大约15我的感伤d friends. I got drunk and i made out with a guy. Didnt seem like a big deal at the time, nor the next morning when my friend told me all the stuff i had done. Monday comes around and I confront this guy about slapping my best friends butt, because she obviously didnt like it. Take note that this guy who had slapped my friends butt was the same guy who had liked me for 2 years but was stuck in the best friend zone until i crushed his heart by getting a boyfriend. I tell him to have some respect and he retaliates by comparing him slapping her butt to me drunk kissing the guy. I had even asked if the guy was okay with it just to make sure i hadnt gotten mixed signals. But the guy who slapped my friends butt (lets call him Dave) exposes me (or tries to, im not too sure because i dont know if it was the truth) says the guy i made out with (lets call him bob) didnt want to kiss me and all these other things. Throughout the rest of the day i just got shit (it was purely banter but it was still hurtful) from mainly the guys and stuff. Im just conflicted on whether or not it was the truth, what Dave said. Because my best friend told me she also asked Bob if he even wanted to and he said yeah. I’m not sure if Dave was embarassed and just wanted to retaliate by making a lie and telling everyone about it or if t was the truth.

I'm so embarrassed and ashamed. I was doing so good, had my life together until I started drinking again this past week. Saturday I was working and this cute delivery guy I messed around with stops by. I haven't seen him for 3 weeks so after he does his delivery, he asks what time I get off and I told him 4 so his like ok i'll still be around then, stop by and visit me. So after my shift, don't know why I decided to drink shots. It hit me when I stop by the store he was at and the rest is a blur. I got arrested in front of him, I remember him talking to the police and my car got towed. I only got protective custody but from what I gathered from a few people, I nearly ran over somebody and I scraped my new used car. Scary and I feel so stupid. I live in a small town and I'm just so embarrassed. I wonder what he thinks of me now. I don't want to see him or face anyone for awhile but unfortunately I work in public and have to face it. Such a humiliating ordeal I just wanna cry and cry.

I got so drunk last night, i ruined this guy's 21st bday party. I was falling down and rolling around on the ground, grabbing guy's penises and being sloppy agressive and sleazy even though i have a boyfriend and i spilled beer all over his porch several times. I made a fool out of myself being loud and obnoxious

I'm hoping sharing will help me recover from the other night.
I went out with my fiance to his friend's 30th. I'd already had a long day at work (overtime on a Saturday), and hadn't eaten much. 5 glasses of wine, then a horrendous concoction some random girl created for three of us.
On wine #4, I acted really awfully towards a couple of blonde girls (friends of the birthday guy) for talking to my fiance (in front of me - I doubt he was trying anything on, and even if the girls were being flirty I was RIGHT THERE). I proceeded to very obviously flash my ring and loudly call him my fiance, announcing that we were getting married and basically marking my territory in front of them until they went away. He was humiliated, he told me later that had upset him the most, and that he was really turned off by my jealousy; he was insulted by my lack of trust, by my inference that he would even consider something like that, embarrassed that people saw me acting so awfully to other people and frightened that he was going to marry someone so controlling, so insecure. Anyway.
We all left the pub, went to the birthday boy's house where I danced for about 15 minutes before passing out on the couch, legs spread wide open. A guy made a comment, my fiance nearly got in a fist fight with him. He explained later that the guy wasn't being crude, but called me fat. I've put weight on lately and I'm very, very conscious, so that just adds to the humiliation. This was right in the centre of the room, and I'm mortified considering what I was wearing, what I must have looked like, what they must have said. People were laughing at me.
FI carried me into the bedroom, let me rest. A nice girl (the one who made the awful drink) sat with me, gave me water, looked after me, told me we've all been here, it's ok. I was crying, telling her I was mortified, I never do this. I never get this bad. She said it was ok. I threw up (in the bathroom, thankfully). I think fiance helped me, but it might have been the girl, I'm not sure. Went back into the room, and all of a sudden started yelling at my FI, calling him an arsehole for talking to the girls, how dare he, I was calling them sluts, etc etc (these girls are in the house as well, probably heard every word). The guy whose room it was was being nice, helping FI and my other friend, but he was like okkkayyyy and left when I started screaming at FI. I storm off, stumble through the party, sobbing, out the front door, pretty much fall down the stairs, out onto the street. I can see people looking over the balcony at me.
FI follows me, yelling at me, trying to keep me off the road. I just keep going (I do this when I'm drunk, I just run down the street like an escapee. I don't know what I'm running away from, but it's like I can't stop. It's dangerous and ridiculous). I remember him getting angry, saying he doesn't want to marry me anymore, he can't handle this. He flags a taxi down, but I don't have my bag. He puts me in the taxi, gives me $30 and sends the taxi off.
的rest was ok, I guess, it wasn't in public and while we both lost a bit of sleep, it's forgivable. But I humiliated both of us at the party. These are his close friends, I'm new to the group. They don't know me well, but I felt like they liked me. Now they see me as this crazy, jealous, clingy psycho who drunk-cries and passes out after a couple of drinks. That's how they'll remember me. And that's how HE'LL know his friends remember me. I feel like I've completely alienated both of us from his circle.
Yesterday we spent at home, recovering - from the drinking, and from the shame.
我不认为结婚了,但大便我觉得like we can't go back from this. I realise everyone else was drunk, but I was the only one who made a real scene. I was the one who humiliated not only herself, but her man - their friend.
I've ruined not only my own friendships with these people but HIS. And that's the unforgivable thing, the thing I'm most ashamed of, and most afraid that will stain our relationship. He's told me he loves me, he's been really kind and gentle with me, but I can see that he's ashamed. I can see that he's concerned, and I'm so afraid that there's something that I've broken that can't be fixed.

I'm joining the party:
I'm not very good at drinking and when I used to get drunk I would get VERY drunk and do the stupidest most embarrassing stuff. Anyways...
One particular time I started drinking really early and I went to my then-boyfriend's house to hang out with friends. I blacked out at around 2pm and I woke up the next morning didn't remember a thing. People were telling me I was possessed and that I was doing this weird shuddering thing with my eyes and taking my clothes off and acting..... again possessed.
的worst part is I woke up and did not remember a THING. I was so embarrassed. Still am... But honestly thinking back on it now, it couldn't have been that bad... (right?
I just laughed it off. The next morning one of my friends was nice enough to notice how humiliated I was the next morning and said "It's ok, we all do stupid stuff when we're drunk". His reassurance in that moment has makes this memory a little more bearable, god bless him
I'm not friends with any of those people anymore which oddly makes me feel a lot worse about what happened... But anyways. Everyone else's stories really help. Thanks.

Ive read several of these comments and i havent found one that makes me feel better i am the definition of alcoholic i know i have a problem but drinking is too much fun it literally makes everthing better so you can imagine i have a boat-load of embarrassing stories. For example... went to wally world noticed i have a tick (blood sucking insect) on my head asked a lady...complete stranger to pull it out. She refused so i proceeded to cuss her out. Went to a hotel at the beach hit on a very young girl fought her dad and threw up in the pool before trying to fight an angry mob. Called a sex line talked for hours cost me 640. dollars. Beat up my friend for brushing me at a well popullated party then cried infront of everyone cause he had to go to the hospital. Head butted a girl for eating my FF. Forgot i was having intercourse and yelled at the woman for trying to rape me. Totalled my truck... in my driveway.... 2 many fat women to count. Called to police to take me to the store cause i was too drunk to drive- they actually obliged me. Kicked in an unlocked bedroom door-mine. Broke a friends jaw for touching my dog. Burt many pizzas falling asleep. Slept outside in extreme weather (tstorms/snowing) i could go on and on. The point is chosing to drink is human nature we've all been there we ALL do stupid things everyone who drinks will eventually do something stupid. Dont beat yourself up about it. YOU WERE DRUNK! Best thing you can do is drink some more and prove to yourself it doesnt happen everytime. Works for me. Party On!

Everybody’s stories made me feel so much better about my situation. I’m hoping sharing my story will help me feel even better about myself. I had huge plans with the hubby for our anniversary. Drove far to see a show and stayed in the city walking distance from the venue. The night went great for most of the night. It was the last couple hours things went to shit. I don’t get out much and I never drink. When I do drink, I think I’m in my 20’s again and can do a boatload of shots and be fine. Nope! I became a hot mess because I don’t know how to stop drinking once I start. Got cut off from the bar and almost got us kicked out. I know I danced most of the time, but my husband said I was spilling my drink on all the people around me. All I remember was apologizing to the people around me for stepping on them when I danced, but wasn’t aware I was giving them a booze shower. The worst part is that I barely remember the show I was looking forward to seeing for weeks. The night ended in a huge drunken screaming match with my husband. We never fight, so on top of the embarrassment, I feel like an ass for ruining his night and have anxiety over fighting. Now I can’t even listen to the bands music without thinking about this drunken episode. I just hope I can get over this and listen to their music again and just look back and laugh at it. I think my drinking days are over after this.

I had a bad night last night. But what makes it worse is that I ruined what was meant to be a wonderful evening for so many people. I went to a show by myself and to compensate for nerves and social anxiety I kept drinking glass after glass (it’s no excuse, I know, it was a slippery slope). I was loud and obnoxious and was shushed several times and told to shut up by those around me. I feel awful. I annoyed so many people. And worst, the people on stage most likely were annoyed by it too. I then saw comments about it the next day on social media. I cannot apologise enough (and I did to some of the people). I wish I could redo the night. I cannot stress enough how awful I feel. I am so ashamed of myself I just want to curl up into a ball and hide away from all social interactions from here on out. But with that being said, I have been trying to follow the advice from this article and the previous comments and I have to say it is helping.

I want on a 2 day drinking binge I’m ashame and embarrass
Of my behaviorv offended a lot of people I apologize
学课不喝酒,保持我的嘴蜀t ?

Reading through these comments this morning had really helped me so i thought i would leave my own. I was at my partners christmas dinner, we had predrinks before hand with some of the other younger people with in the company. I was drinking red wine all night which i never normally drink. I also suffer from an eating disorder so my stomach was totally empty and acidic. So i got chatty and friendly at predrinks and that was fine. We got to hall the company had hired out for dinner and I had more wine there. I could feel myself becoming way to chatty and noticing that i was the drunkest person there. I went to the bathroom and ended up not being able to get my shirt back on. A worker i know quite well from other functions had to come in and help me dress myself. I remember snippits of weird embarrassing conversations i was having. I ended up really angry at my partner although i have no memory of it and i got into a cab and went home by about 8pm. I had had an starter but left before the main course came out. To make it worse my partner didnt cover me, they told all their workmates i left because i was angry. Which i dont remember at all. I dont know the order any of these events happened. I am just so embarrassed. Everyones going to think im crazy and agro. I dont know what was wrong with me and so many people witnessed my behaviour

我知道我有一个问题,当我开始喝酒。的eternal "I'll just have 2 drinks" ends in 15 drinks. Same happened last night. I went to a concert, but mostly because I knew a guy would be there that I had a thing with a couple of weeks ago. although I already sort of guessed he wasn't really that interested in me any more (he was at first) after also a ridiculous drunken night (another embarassing and long story). So, I'm there, he's there, he sort of stays out of my way, and I'm playing it cool. Chatting with other people, having a good time actually. He did come over once to talk a bit, but left rapidly. And then, then I started to get drunk I saw him chatting with other girls. That made me jealous - and drunk and jealous is no good combination. I walked up to him and asked "Do you think we will ever sleep together again?". He looked at me with slight disgust and shook his head.
Oh My God. Thinking of this just makes me want to dissapear off of the face of the earth!!!
的n later that night I deleted him as my FB-friend and went up to him to tell him about this. Another cringe-worthy moment.
To end it all with a message sent at 6 o'clock in the morning saying "I wanted you tonight, too bad. Byeeeeee!!"
Every time I think back to all of this (have been having flashbacks all day long) I could die of embarassment.
I'm gonna stop drinking. It's just not worth it.

This happened Saturday night at a Halloween/birthday party. My girlfriend and I showed up to a party that her best friend and husband invited us to, I've known them as long as I've known my gf (9+years). As soon as we got there we were told that "we had to catch up" so we began drinking and taking anything alcohol related. Taking shots after shots, gummy bears with alcohol, apple slices fermented with alcohol, syringes with jello. I made the huge mistake of drinking on an empty stomach, I didn't think about it, the only thing on my mind was gotta catch up, finally have a night out with my girlfriend, I'm going to have a good time, also I'm nowhere near a big drinker. After me and my girlfriend were pulled to the dance floor, I don't remember anything. It was all blur, now my gf won't talk to me :( when I asked her what happened the next day, she said I had acted like a monster, I got extremely crazy and was put in a headlock. She said I was close to getting killed, I wanted to urinate and being in a costume I must've had issues trying to take it out and when I did a little girl was nearby so her father thought the wrong thing and was ready to kill me. To make things worst, she said I pushed her really hard and she fell on her back. I would never lay a finger on her and I am not someone who resorts to violence in any way. I can't find a big enough rock to hide my face under, this is the first time anything like this has happened to me and I can't find a way to deal with the shame. I feel what I have done is unforgivable :(

It was my birthday last week and I have been dealing with a lot of social anxiety, depression over career, life, existential crisis, other 22 year old B.S., so I really wanted to have a great time. I took myself to a concert I really wanted to go to, went out with my sister and cousin to bring the birthday in (which went amazingly well) and even went out again at the end of the week. The next day however, I went out one more time to celebrate with other big cousins of mine who have always treated me like a little sister. They always go out together because they're in the same age group, so getting to drink with them now is something I've grown fond of, even though I'm less of a pro. I knew I was still hungover from all the tequila I had the night before (which led me to cursing out a guy I really like for no reason), but decided to go meet them anyway. I didn't plan on drinking at first, but decided after a while that I'd be down for a couple of harmless shots. WRONG. A couple turned into a few, along with several beers, so nevertheless I became heavily inebriated within 3 hours. We decided to go out somewhere else afterwards, where I had more shots, mixed drinks, and that is when everything went to shit. Apparently I was so drunk that I was falling into my usual drunken promiscuity, which somehow could have allegedly tempted one of my cousins. I just remember walking back to the table from using the bathroom for the 18th time that night, and hearing one of my other cousins angrily say to him, "So you're gonna fuck your cousin? Really?!" Needless to say, that was awkward and embarrassing enough as it is, whether or not it was actually true. This should have been my cue to try and find my way home, but I chose not to respond and to continue on with the night. The next morning I wake up in a strange bed to cramps and completely soaked pants. I have no idea what happened after that moment, but the only flashbacks I gathered from the rest of the day included: 1) jumping on the bar to dance and being pulled down 2) flirting with a cousin's friend aggressively to make him kiss me 3) yelling at my friend to take a job offer and get his life together. It's 3 days later and I'm too ashamed to speak and apologize to my cousins, because I still don't fully know what they were dealing with from me that night. I still have no idea when and where I pissed my pants and who else witnessed it. I know it doesn't seem like it from this story, but my family is known to uphold a certain refined and classy behavior ("stuck up"), which none of this clearly adheres to. If anyone else were to find out what the hell happened that night, I would be labeled an alcoholic and socially branded as a problem-child. I am not an alcoholic, but do have issues that I need help with overcoming, and this godawful experience has finally helped me realize this. I hope this puts things in perspective for anyone dealing with something similar.

It’s been a lot for me this week my 8 years live in partner left me for 6 days now, I went to a place a little far where I live ang I drink to forget him but things got bad when I was going home someone tried to chased me 2 woman and two guys whit a car the girl insisted to take me home and fallowing me but I was Afraid because I don’t know this people. I run and hide in the brushes when I saw that their gone I run like hell then I rich out the highway I took the jeep and cried somuch then people trying to talk to me and holding me I’ve freak out, and fall out from the jeep then so many people looking at me and police give a hand I told them I just want to went home but they keep fallowing me so I wears at them and to police I said I just want to went home and no body is seems to tell me how to get a ride because I didn’t know the place , but I walk and walk the still fallowing me and holding me so swear so much that what the Fxx. It took me an hour to find a taxe and the police telling them find out where I live that even freak me out somuch more. Some taxe didn’t want to give me a ride because they thought I’m strange and looking horable and dirty. When I finally have a ride home I’m still afraid they might make trouble of me. don’t know what to do with all that embarrassment:(

Hey Guys, Im glad I came across the website, I actually cant believe reading that other people do the same stupid things makes me feel ever so slightly better, I have reached a point where alchohol is ruining my life, Driving drunk, Phoning people when drunk, black outs and it just keeps going on and on, I dont drink every night but when I do I completely loose control, I am so embarrased about my drinking and behaviour that I feel like this hell will never end, I try and remind myself that I need to move on and forward but it is so hard! I know I cant continue like this. Im starting not even recognize myself. Well its only 4 days sober now, but I really hope I can start to build a life where I actually am not ashamed of myself!