原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为
原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为可能很难。喝醉是人们让自己难堪或犯傻的最常见原因之一。如果你喝醉了,可以很有把握地假设,你在一些小的、次要的方面让自己尴尬了。如果你是一个酒鬼,你可能会有一些非常史诗般的夜晚,以你或别人的尴尬告终。在某些情况下,这些故事是可笑的,可以摆脱或只是开玩笑。在其他情况下,这些是我们酗酒时代的幽灵和恐怖故事:尴尬的醉酒之夜永远不会被承认或以任何方式被承认,因为羞愧和尴尬太大了。令人尴尬的醉酒故事促使我喝得更多。如果我喝多了,就很容易忘记我的耻辱。我花了很长时间才原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为。
现在,作为一个清醒的、正在康复的酒鬼,我再也不能逃避了。我仍然有尴尬的时刻,我仍然记得我酗酒的日子里最糟糕的夜晚,但我处理它们的方式不同了。这就是我的工作。
为自己的醉酒行为感到尴尬?让自己发誓
如果我在走向我的车的路上走神了,我想起了一个特别尴尬的醉酒时刻,我就会不由自主地开始低声咒骂。对于走在我旁边的人来说,这可能有点吓人,但对我来说,这是一种本能的行为,实际上会让我感觉好一点。说脏话其实对你有好处英国的一项研究证明了这一点,并有助于缓解压力。你可以通过咒骂来释放负面情绪和情感上的痛苦,所以不要抗拒。
认识到自己的羞耻,原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为
就像戒毒一样,承认你的羞耻感是接受它并从它中恢复的第一部分。这是完全正常的人类情感,羞耻,必须处理为了学习,成长,从挥之不去的过去中走出来。
不要试图为令人尴尬的酒后行为找借口
酗酒是不理智的。如果是的话,就不会有那么多关于成瘾症.因此,试图为你的醉酒行为辩解或解释是注定要失败的。特别是因为当人们沉迷于某种上瘾时,他们的行为往往与自己的道德准则不一致。所以,如果你正在应对羞耻,很可能你已经知道你做了什么不好或令人尴尬的事,任何理性的思考都不会让它消失。
记住你已经原谅的人
当所有这些都失败了,记住在你生命中的某个时刻,别人不得不请求你的原谅。你是如何或为什么原谅他们的?
爱的最高形式是宽恕。冒犯越大,原谅那个人就需要越多的爱。当你原谅自己时,你需要加倍的爱。这可能很难做到,尤其是在刚清醒的时候,自我厌恶通常处于顶峰。如果你不能快速找出你喜欢自己的五件事,你就需要学着去做每天练习来提升我们的自尊.
羞愧和尴尬很好地提醒我们,酒精是如何影响我们的行为的,而且是不好的方式。但就像所有事物一样,它们只有在适度的情况下是好的:太多的羞耻会阻碍我们,阻止我们充分地生活。克服尴尬,原谅自己。只有到那时,你过去酗酒的耻辱才会逐渐消失,变成没有痛苦的记忆。
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Doyle, B.(2015年7月2日).原谅自己尴尬的醉酒行为,HealthyPlace。2023年2月14日,从//www.5wetown.com/blogs/debunkingaddiction/2015/07/forgiving-yourself-for-embarrassing-drunken-behavior获取
作者:Becky Doyle
我完全有共鸣——我去朋友的朋友家里看足球比赛,但我完全不记得了。那里的一个家伙让我和他一起喝酒,结果我出去和他一起做了一些我不记得的事情,而其他人(包括我的两个好朋友)都在里面看比赛。事情可能会变得更糟,比如被强奸之类的,但我头脑清醒,问了赶我走的朋友。最后,我把朋友的抗抑郁药从车窗里倒了出来,几乎不得不叫救护车来检查我自己是否服用了这些药。警察被召来试图在路边找到我倒药的地方。这太不像我了,当我被告知我所做的事情时,我难以置信。我姐姐不得不在凌晨2点来接我,我显然生气地对她尖叫。我在胡说八道。我父母一直等到我回家才看到我没穿裤子。从那以后,我几乎每个小时都在哭,感到羞愧得几乎吃不下东西。 i haven’t blacked out in 6 months because i broke my foot the last time. i don’t know why i let myself get to that point, but i use alcohol as a crutch for social anxiety. i feel so guilty for putting my friends through that and for all the stuff i don’t remember saying or doing. my friends i went with forgive me and were just worried, saying they weren’t mad at all, yet i’m furious with myself. thanks for making me feel less alone.
天啊,杰德,我懂你。
我进来是因为我刚交了个新男友,让自己很尴尬。我对他透露的一些事情怀恨在心。而不是主张自己在清醒和行走的尊严声称'这不会是我' ....我被邀请去他家。他的成年子女和他们的伴侣在那里。尽管今年我自己因为多起死亡事件(包括我的母亲、教母和两个最好的朋友)而悲伤不已,我还是不情愿地去了。她的新男友几乎不在身边。我的神经控制不住了。他的孩子们都很悲痛,因为他们的朋友刚刚自杀了。我觉得自己太不自量力了,于是开始在服药期间空腹喝下三瓶高浓度红酒。我依稀记得,我和一个哭泣的伴侣坐在一起,他是我新男友的儿子。 Next thing I remember is waking up next to my bf. Zero recall of how I got there. Instinctively I reached out to touch him. He yelled ‘DON’T’ and got up and left the room. I’ve no idea how badly I behaved or what insults I will have slung (I know myself, it won’t be good). I got up and took
我的东西离开了。
我已经哭了4天了,因为我让自己失望了,无缘无故地伤害了别人。
我终于写了一个简短的,真诚的道歉,而他唯一的回应就是屏蔽我。
我住在英国的一个小镇。
我苦恼。
此外,工会确实有潜力。
我是个臭名昭著的自我破坏者。
我想我一定会尝试持续治疗。
我52岁!!!!。
你没有做过任何我们成年人在饮酒生涯中没有做过的事。我受够了那些道貌岸然的混蛋,他们会和你一起喝酒,但后来却对你评头论足,因为那天晚上不管出于什么原因,你的容忍度有所不同。我发现,当我坚持使用白色爪子时,我在外出时不再有这些问题,因为它的酒精含量较低,我仍然觉得我在参与。我也改变了那些和我一起出去玩的人,当糟糕的夜晚真的发生时,他们会耸耸肩,笑一笑,然后继续前进,因为他们不会假装从未让自己尴尬过。我的意思是,如果人们出去喝酒,他们认为可能会发生什么?他们期望在x个人中每个人都表现得像圣人吗?你有没有和别人的配偶打过拳或者发生过性关系?然后原谅自己,学会做自己最好的朋友——如果局势逆转,你会把这些人中的任何一个从你的生活中抛弃吗?可能不会,所以他们中的任何一个对你这么做的人最终都会以较轻的罪名这么做。
我只是想评论一下。我完全了解你的感受。我有非常严重的社交焦虑症,而且很痛苦地有自知之明。在我感到紧张或不认识某些人的情况下,我就喝酒来放松自己。有一段时间我感觉很好,很放松,还有gpod公司,但我不知道该在哪里划清界限。通常情况下,在表现得像个十足的白痴之前,我已经喝得太多了。就像,我是如此控制在清醒,我只是疯了!!!!从来没有人直接对我的行为说过话,但我已经不再被邀请出去了/我注意到聚会并没有真正计划太多,即使他们计划了,通常也会发出一个关于行为的一般性通知!!当第二天没有人问我感觉如何时,我知道自己表现不好。沉默说明一切。
我很高兴今天能看到这个。昨天晚上喝醉了酒,我一整天都在自责。和朋友去啤酒厂喝酒了。我只记得喝啤酒,然后一切都变黑了.....我什么都不记得了!但我的“朋友”今天早上一定要给我发短信,提醒我做过的每一件愚蠢而尴尬的事情。我感到很羞愧,不能。睡眠。我脑子里一直在回放我为自己的行为感到羞愧。
嗯,我的邻居聚会,我调酒了,我不认为我做了什么太尴尬的事情,可能只是说了太多的话。我正在异地恋,所以我一回到公寓,第一件事就是打电话给我男朋友。我不知道我喝醉的时候说了什么蠢话,但这让他挂了我的电话,之后我给他打的每个电话他都不理。现在我感觉很糟糕,因为我不确定我说了什么让他这么难过,但我确实记得他说过“这就是我不能谈恋爱的原因”。我希望他能原谅我,我肯定不会再喝酒了,尤其是如果这让他对我这么生气的话。
我大半生都在与酒精作斗争。有几次我以为我已经控制住了,但也有几次我真的无法阻止自己。我现在坐在床上发抖,我的头从昨晚起就雾蒙蒙的。
醉了的我是一个哭泣的人。她只会哭。我与我的抑郁和自尊作了长期的斗争。有时我赢,有时我输。但是喝醉了的我总是输。
我昨晚一口气喝了两瓶葡萄酒和半瓶马里布。最后我蜷缩在地板上,抽泣着,绝望地向安拉、毗湿奴和一大堆我根本不相信的神祈祷。我谈到了死亡,把我男朋友吓了个半死。我没有喝得酩酊大醉,但我绝对控制不了自己。我絮絮叨叨地说,他应该得到更多,而不是和一个像我这样迷失人生的人在一起。
我最近流产了,在戒酒一年后,我又开始酗酒了。上个月我所有的醉酒尝试都以眼泪告终,从轻声哭泣到完全歇斯底里。
我觉得很尴尬。我知道不该这样处理自己的情绪。我希望他能原谅我,我在喝醉的时候发起的对话10/10不是喝醉的对话。我挣扎着应对生活中的一切,我只是觉得我和这个家伙搞砸了。我在喝了几杯酒之后,把东西放在别人身上,谁也不应该拿。
坚持下去..你寻求过帮助吗?你去看心理医生了吗?我从小也与酒精作斗争。在我儿子出生后,我失去了它。当时他在喝酒,然后动手了。警察来了。我得到了5150d。去了康复中心,又复发了大半年。我做过这么丢人的事。 Screamed, raged, cried. Woke up with people I don’t know and in places I didn’t know in my youth. The amazing thing is that we’re still here!!! We gotta use the shame and embarrassment we feel to motivate us to do better. I never want to embarrass myself or my kid like I used to. I don’t want to be a crazy, violent, drunk mom. I’ve seen the devastation me and my illness has caused. I thank god I never seriously hurt someone or myself. You are so blessed to recognize you have a problem. You are blessed to know that you gotta shape up or you stand to lose something (yourself and your partner). The next step is harder. Now you have to do something about it. I’m telling you, you can. Some people have no insight to the things they do and the hurt they cause. You don’t seem like one of those people. Please get the help you deserve. You don’t have to hurt like this anymore.
我不想被贴上无法控制饮酒的标签。虽然我不想被贴上这样的标签。我不会停止喝酒,即使我知道这不是一杯、两杯或四杯,不,我必须把所有的酒都喝完。
今晚我做到了,我搞砸了,不能自己开车回家。
我的朋友带着她的3个孩子在她的姐夫家,那里有3个孩子。我在中午12点左右出现。我带了15包,我朋友可能有3包,剩下的我都有。一整天都没吃东西。坐在他们的后门廊上,孩子们跑来跑去
friends brother in law Going over with his friend/ worker about what they are doing with their backyard (the friend is a guy who owns his own company who actually knows my husband Bc of my husband’s company ) while I felt the puke coming up couldn’t more so I put my had over my mouth only to have puke go every where... everyone jumped into action trying to clean up my puke from their deck
我出了个大洋相。我想爬进洞里,再也不出来。这不是我第一次这样了。我该如何补偿我的朋友和她的姐夫姐夫,还有他们的6个孩子,他们一直在想为什么我不能走路,而且吐得到处都是……I’m so embarrassed I didn’t even call my husband. My friend called him to tell him I drank once again to much to drive safely home.
而且我还会和很多人一起睡在这里。为什么?为什么?我总是把自己置于这些困境?????我必须戒酒,否则什么都不会改变!!
现在对我来说,断片是件很严重的事。在过去的18-24个月里,我75%的夜晚都是由一个看护人来结束的,要么是为了确保我安全到家,要么是为了阻止我做一些愚蠢/后悔的事情,要么是为了伤害自己或别人。
我其实是一个不需要酒精的人,当我决定开车的时候,不要错过它,但是当我出去的时候,我就会出去,我会喝得酩酊大醉。
我曾经能够意识到,当我太生气了,然后我放慢速度或停止。这个过滤器似乎已经消失了。我从“还行”到“彻底毁灭”,对我和我的同伴都没有任何警告。
我被描述为完全空虚,失去身体能力,讨厌,对人咄咄逼人,完全令人讨厌。
最近,在一次晚上外出后。我重复了这个模式。没事儿,没有警告,没有线索。现在,幸运的是,我实际上不记得发生了什么,我做了什么,但其他人可以.....这也是一个工作聚会。
我很幸运,因为我有一些可以依靠的朋友,其中一位和我在一起,她把我从困境中拉了出来,对我说了严厉的话,把我带到了门口。我怀疑有多少人会在晚上出去玩的时候被毁了。
让她冷静几天后,我走近她,为破坏了她的夜晚向她道歉。她对我一言难尽,告诉我一切,告诉我我需要听到这些,因为我需要震惊。
我wasdevastated ! !烧毁的! !不好意思! !吓坏了。
我太过分了。
我被告知她曾考虑结束我们的友谊,她每天都爱我,但实际上讨厌喝醉的我。她说她不会再和我出去了,但我们可以和好。我很感激,但她也告诉我,她担心我喝酒,因为她知道这是一个问题。我同意了,我不可能不同意。我知道这件事已经有一段时间了,我设法不让我男朋友知道,我想是因为当我和朋友出去的时候,这种情况更经常发生。
几周前我在家里喝了一杯,(这很常见,这一周也很常见),我很暴躁,我男朋友告诉我,我的攻击性越来越强。
我经常收到这样的评论,“哦,我们喝了一杯吗??!”公司里一直有个笑话说轮到谁照顾我了。
我现在很担心如何戒酒,最近的一个晚上,我的计划是开车——我被说服了,因为今天是圣诞节,你应该喝一杯。
我认为戒酒是我唯一的选择,否则我会失去朋友。我不确定我在工作中是否得到了应有的尊重。这都是因为我一开始就停不下来。
你好,这可能不太尴尬但感觉好像因为这是我第一次因为喝酒而断片我做了一件我希望能被遗忘的事。我在电话里大声谈论性的事情,我想别人听到了。我吐了四次。两次在酒吧,一次在外面,一次在优步司机的车里。我真的是反社会的,所以这种情况发生后,我不想再去酒吧,甚至不想出去,因为我的焦虑让我觉得我在外面被拍摄了,这真的会让我感到非常羞辱....说实话,我不知道该怎么做。
我们在爱尔兰度假了4天,我妈妈有老年痴呆症,还有两个姐妹。我和大一点的相处得很好,但和中间的不太好。这次旅行对我来说真的很艰难。但在最后一个晚上,我们和堂兄弟姐妹和家人一起出去玩,结果我喝醉了,在家人面前羞辱了我的二姐。我很糟糕,说了很多难听的话。我不记得了,因为我喝醉了。
我的另一个姐姐不跟我说话。而我之前的那个人希望我死,还说我不是她的妹妹。
我已经发了一封道歉信,但一无所获。我告诉她我很抱歉,我恨自己毁了这次假期。还是没有回应。
我该怎么办?
首先,感谢大家的分享!我也有过饮酒后无法解释的经历。我有4年没有喝酒,只喝了3次……然后我和一个男人在一起,我们一起喝酒……事情变得很糟糕最后以离婚收场,他是个暴力的家伙。所以我结束了那段感情开始重建我的生活,遇到了我19岁时的爱人。我们一拍即合。他刚从一段糟糕的关系中走出来,不用说,我们开始把以前的一些不良行为转嫁到彼此身上……我们在喝酒。很严重,这让我有好几次出丑,他也一样。 I get so angry at him at times, between the alcohol and all the situations, the lying and the leaving, I have felt so alone. We make up and love eachother unconditionally, but there are times when I wonder if I would make better decisions alone.
有一次我特别不能忘记,我们和朋友出去过生日,我和我的男人不得不多带一瓶酒,之后去了当地的酒吧,不得不尿尿,我经过了门口的女士,当我出来的时候,他们告诉我我需要离开,所以我骂了他们,告诉老板吸我的d**k…我甚至没有d**k..我不知道为什么,这太粗鲁了,这是一年前的事了。我回去了几次,酒吧女服务员说我需要向老板道歉,但她不让我进去……我告诉她好吧,说了她的名字,并告诉她我不会再回她的店了……今天我白天进去,向店主道歉,解释说我知道已经一年了,我有酗酒的问题,我非常不尊重他们,我想道歉。他说你在那件事发生前一两次也有类似的行为,我进去后的情况不会改变,我说我理解,我只是想纠正我的错误,然后我就离开了。我希望他能原谅我,这样做确实有点疼,我从小就和家人一起去那里,也是在那里我找到了我的爱。但我做了我能做的去弥补。现在我必须努力让我的生活变得正确,远离酒精,重新找到快乐,看看我的生活将把我带向何方。 Alcohol has always been a problem for me, drinking too much its time for it to be a lesson and not a life sentence.
嗨,让我也分享一下我的故事。我和朋友去酒吧喝酒(不是很近)。过了一会儿,我完全醉了,我的朋友们告诉我,我离开了他们近10分钟,他们说我躺在楼梯上等等。我真不敢相信他们居然在我喝醉后让我去散步。你猜怎么着?当我回到家时,我的内裤不见了。我真的很尴尬。我真的不知道发生了什么。谁能给我点建议,让我感觉好点?我害怕有人会拍我的照片或视频
我想和大家分享一些我无法忘怀的事情。
星期六晚上我去了邻居的烧烤派对,我是那里最年轻的,那里的大多数人都比我大得多。我喝着啤酒,和人聊天,一切都很顺利,直到一个女孩问我要不要来点杜松子酒(我同意了)。我不太记得我喝了多少杜松子酒,但这足以让我跑到厕所,在水槽里呕吐。我试过疏通,但卡住了。由于我的鲁莽和醉酒的状态,我不知道该怎么办,所以我就离开了。因为我的心理健康,我通常不再喝酒了,但这次我破例多聊天。我患有抑郁症和焦虑症,所以我不可能在人群中感到舒服。长话短说。我对自己所做的事感到非常内疚。我为我的行为感到羞愧,我真的很抱歉。我把自己锁在房间里躺在床上,充满了内疚和悲伤,无法应对外面的世界。 I feel like it’s eating me from inside.I really hope you will read my apology,I’m sorry I couldn’t do it in person but believe me,writing it here feels like it(and also it’s impossible for me to tell you that in person). I hope you understand :(
我通常在大量饮酒后感到焦虑。主要是因为我太大声了,或者告诉了别人一些关于我自己的太私人和尴尬的事情。然而,有几次我宁愿自己的膝盖骨骨折,也不愿面对前一天晚上发生的事情。
我患有焦虑症,非常严重,当我边喝酒边做某事时,我的焦虑症几乎会在第二天、几天、几个月或几年后使我瘫痪……因为是的,我仍然为我17多年前说过的话感到尴尬。
无论如何,这是我最好的应对机制,我希望它能帮助到任何需要它的人!免责声明:这绝不是万灵药。这样做通常能让我从焦虑中解脱大约20分钟,直到我再次想起发生了什么。20分钟的集中注意力,这样我就可以完成工作、洗澡、做饭、睡觉……任何我的焦虑可能阻止我做的事。我想说的是,在这样做了几年之后,我对某些情况的焦虑已经大大减轻了。如果你最终喜欢它,也许你也会喜欢它。
首先,我描绘出当时的情景(或尽可能接近当时的情景),然后我把场景定格,就像暂停电影一样。接下来,我想象我变成石头的地方的墙壁和地面,我周围的人也开始变成石头。想象一下,就好像石头在扩散。最后,我把自己变成了石头。这让我可以从一个外部的角度来看待这个情况,因为一切都变成了石头,所以很安静和和平。最后,我想象所有的石头被压碎成灰尘,然后被风吹走。我已经洗心革面了。
有一次我在开车的时候和我哥哥的朋友在我哥哥的车后座上亲热。唯一的问题是,他已经订婚了,他告诉我了,我告诉他没关系,我只是喝醉了,所以我吻了他。还有一次,我在夜总会喝醉了,开始亲吻一个不喜欢的男人,他对我很生气。太尴尬了。其他任何时候我喝醉了,亲吻一个陌生人,他们至少回报了我,哈哈。还有一次在同学聚会上,我开始唠叨我生活中让我不开心的事情,比如我在和一个我不喜欢的人约会,我也没有孩子,但实际上我从来没有真正想要孩子,所以我不知道我为什么要说这些,哈哈。
今天我觉得有必要分享一下这个周末我因为酗酒所做的事情。
晚上先喝了几杯酒,然后喝了很多很多杯啤酒,在一个非常亲密的朋友周年纪念派对上又喝了威士忌,就在那时,一切都开始了。似乎我太醉了,以至于我立刻进入了野蛮模式。(请注意,我很少来这里)我决定搭讪我朋友妈妈的朋友,直到她真的吓坏了,离开了派对。我非常尊重这个家庭但我又一次证明了我错了。现在我不相信自己,感到羞耻,躲在自己的房间里痛打自己。我有酗酒和感觉被爱的问题。这让我开始追求一种自最近分手以来一直渴望的快感。我希望家人能原谅我的偏执。
需要时间。我以前去过那里。我犯了很多错误。我被嘲笑,被轻视,被遗忘。在某种意义上,我的家人让我死去,我在Facebook上被那些我认为根本不会去那里的人抨击。我想这是我应得的。2015年开始戒酒。当我遇到以前认识的人时,他们会试着提起一些事情,微笑着看着我的脸。这是莫大的耻辱。我真的放弃了所有人与人之间的爱的接触。 I forgave myself and am able to stick up for myself since I’m not thrown into panic daily. It’s sucks but move on there’s better people out there who would forgive if they don’t. Don’t sell yourself short like I did. One comment I’ll never forget. My sister says. With a smile. I’m surprised you didn’t kill yourself Casey. Hm. Was she gonna check ? No.
这些故事让我对我的醉酒行为感到不那么疏远了,但我对3天前发生的事情感到内疚和羞愧,这将会陪伴我很长一段时间。长话短说,我是周六下午订婚的,那天晚上还没结束,我的新未婚夫就因涉嫌侵犯我而被捕了,但实际上是我侵犯了我,我仍然不知道为什么他们没有带走我,而是带走了他。我不太记得了,但我知道我们庆祝完回家后吵了起来,我彻底毁了我们的公寓,把整个社区都吵醒了,因为我把玻璃蜡烛和相框从我们二楼的窗户扔出去,把手割开,血溅到了每一件家具和每一面墙上……我简直不敢相信我就是那个做了这一切的人,我的未婚夫被指控犯下了他没有犯过的罪行,我很痛苦(当警察出现时,我的脖子上有一个手印,但这个手印是他把我从他身上拉开时,我在咬他,抓他的脸,打他,等等)。他做的每件事都是对的;他意识到情况很危险,就离开了,然后打电话给警察让我离开,但即使在看到我造成的破坏之后(伙计们,这太糟糕了),他们还是把他带走了,指控他犯了重罪,我感到非常羞愧,非常厌恶自己,我不知道该如何解决这个问题。直到现在我才意识到我和酒精有一种危险的关系,我就是不能喝酒。我喝酒,然后不停地喝。至少现在我知道我不是一个人。我只是希望并祈祷我一生的挚爱不会因为这一件事而永久地受到影响。
我决定开始阅读这些,因为作为一个每天都在承受巨大焦虑的人,没有令人尴尬的醉酒行为,我现在非常痛苦。自去年11月以来,我有一次有三天没有喝酒,但我喝酒的习惯已经持续了一年。总之,周五晚上,我和男朋友和他的好朋友在他们家参加了一个聚会……有一段时间一切都很顺利,我非常高兴,但那是一个晚上,你不知道你真的喝醉了,直到你喝得烂醉。我刚认识这些人,我真的很喜欢他们,这是我经历过的最幸福的一段感情,我不想结束。当我喝醉的时候,我的嫉妒和愤怒就出来了,但当我清醒的时候,我是你见过的最不嫉妒/生气的人。那天深夜,大约凌晨4点,我男朋友的前女友给他发了一条10英里长的短信,说她想如何复合(她已经骚扰他一段时间了),他不想让我看到,因为这会让我难过。这让我脑子里产生了很多不合理的想法。所以讨厌醉酒后在他的朋友面前,响亮而尴尬,说奇怪的暴力,我认为有趣的事情,我们躺在地板上睡觉过夜(还有另外三个人在房间里),我开始跟他谈论他的前妻和它直到我只是被公然的意思是想要欺骗他,指责他,不想和我在一起,说糟糕的事情. .然后我发了这个女孩的号码,给她发了非常奇怪的详细的死亡威胁,当时对我来说这只是一个有趣的笑话(我猜是因为我昏过去了)。 I woke up at 9am to my boyfriend yelling on the phone at his step dad who had just saved my ass because the ex girlfriend was about to call the cops on me because i was being a crazy bitch. I feel horrible about all of this. I embarassed myself in front of his friends, I was acting crazy and jealous, I sent his ex girlfriend DEATH THREATS like a crazy and jealous person, his parents have most likely lost all respect for me, i hurt my boyfriends feelings and i'm feeling so much anxiety about all of this i just can't get over it. Every time i get too drunk i do stupid shit and i hate myself for it. I'm afraid i can't stop drinking and my boyfriend is gonna leave me because one of these days i'm gonna fuck up and say something really awful to him. I'm gonna try to be sober from now on but it's so hard.. My life is truly falling apart i've lost my job, i'm homeless, my car is breaking, my family and friends don't talk to me anymore and i'm afraid of losing more things i love due to my drinking problem. I need help i don't know what to do anymore i'm having a hard time coping with all of this.
有一次我喝醉的时候做了件非常愚蠢的事。我在一家俱乐部喝得酩酊大醉,看见我喜欢的女孩在亲吻另一个男人。在我醉酒的愚蠢中,我没有想“哦,她和另一个男人在一起”,我想的是“哦,亲爱的,她和别人亲热了,我猜该轮到我了!”’我抓住她,把她拉到我身边,想要吻她,显然她抽开了,盯着我,既震惊又厌恶。保安马上抓住我,把我扔了出去,看起来比实际情况更糟,我想他们认为我是在性侵她,其实并没有看起来那么糟,但我仍然为像那样强行接近她感到非常羞愧。啊,我知道我没有强奸任何人,没有推荐任何东西,但是我为自己的想法和行为感到非常糟糕,不管我是否喝醉了。
我是来寻求支持的希望能帮我度过又一次酒醉。星期六我出去了,喝得酩酊大醉,对当天的事情几乎不记得了。第二天早上醒来,我试图拼凑出前一天晚上发生的事情,但我什么都不记得了。然后我收到消息,“你还记得做过这个吗?”然后整个现实就出现了。我说了什么,我说了什么?这是最难的部分,不记得,如此失控,任何事都有可能发生。因为我不记得了,我害怕最坏的情况,在现实中,我可能只是有点吵,有点烦人,而且我喝醉的时候确实经常骂人。另外,有些人对事件的看法会和你想的不一样。你内心可能羞愧得要死,你只是今晚的话题,没有人会再考虑你。 Can you remember the last drunk person you saw out? What did you think of their behaviour? And a week later, did you think about them? Probably not as we don't have time to worry about other peoples mistakes. In time, people will forget, we all make mistakes, drunken or not, we are only human. This doesn't justify what we have done, I think the most important thing is that we show remorse for our actions. Apologise to anyone we may have hurt and if they care about you, they will forgive you. Secondly, if alcohol is a trigger then avoid it, completely. If, you are like me, I can't just have one drink. I need to get obliterated. I've ruined so many of my nights out purely because I can't remember what I did. I can live with the guilt of being drunk and acting like an idiot, it's how my friends perceive me that bothers me. I don't want to be "that guy" who always gets drunk when we go out. So, I have decided the only way forward is not to drink. Its going to be tough as I do have social anxiety hence the excessive drinking. I can't wake up feeling like this again.
我在这里写的是希望分享这些会让我感觉更好。所以前几天我和几个朋友(我认识的时间不长)去了一家俱乐部,喝了几杯。我记得我在里面跳舞,玩得很开心,我不记得喝了超过四杯伏特加,我通常都能处理得很好。然而,我记得的下一件事是早上从医院醒来,仍然完全没有意识。我只是收拾好东西,说了再见,甚至都没问发生了什么。我甚至在回家的路上迷了路,好不容易给自己叫了一辆出租车。当我回到家的时候,我收到了很多朋友的信息,他们告诉我,没有必要担心我只是在跳舞时突然失去了所有的力量,在厕所里呕吐,然后完全失去了知觉,他们已经为我叫了救护车,带我去了医院。我一点都不记得了。出院时我吐了,衣服上都是血,还有打点滴和抽血时留下的针孔。我的朋友们都很友好,他们中的一些人说怀疑我的酒被下了药。 Regardless I’m feeling so embarassed for ending up in a hospital on a simple night out and having my friends worry and look after me. Especially not knowing whether I got into that situation myself or if I was spiked and not remembering absolutely anything that happened. I know things could have been a lot worse and apparently I had not said or done anything embarassing according to one of my mates, and I did express my gratefulness to all of them afterwards but I just really wish I could erase the whole night. I called my ex boyfriend whom I’m still really good friends with in the morning and he said that it’s alright we’ve all been there once or more and that made me feel better and I guess that’s why I’m here.
不久前,我(一个女孩)喝醉了,觉得在俱乐部中间和这个女孩亲热是个好主意。事情变得有点激烈,显然他们的视频是我认识的人拍的。最后我回到家,拒绝进去,所以我和我的狗睡在外面的车库里……请给我你的建议,我现在感觉糟透了。
我太早了,试图戒掉这杯酒。2天前,在办公室聚会上,我喝得酩酊大醉,在所有下属和同事面前摔倒。我的前额严重受伤(流血的前额),真的感到羞愧,我也失去了尊重……我需要忘记这件事……谁能给点建议?
我的朋友和我一起喝醉了,我完全退缩了,对发生的事情有模糊的记忆,我想那只是有点恶心,因为你喝醉了就会做傻事。但事实并非如此。情况糟得多。我记得我向我的朋友示好,但当他们告诉我真相时,我不知道我怎么能再忍受下去。我就是不让他们一个人呆着,我一直在努力让事情发生,以至于我的朋友哭了,而我甚至都不知道。情况本来可能会更糟,但那一刻我甚至没有意识到我的朋友有多不安全,有多害怕。我甚至不记得发生了什么。我对他说了所有我能说的,我给他空间。我一直在想,他们一定感觉受到了多大的伤害和背叛。当你期待和朋友度过一个快乐的夜晚时,你最好的朋友完全虐待了你。 I know we won’t ever be friends again, and I don’t even care if they forgive me. I want them to be okay. I don’t know how to forgive myself because it feels like more that just embarrassment. My drunkenness didn’t only affect me, it hurt others. Which I can stand. I don’t even drink often, but every time I do, it’s awful. Escpecially this time.
我以前是个酒量很大的人,一天喝3-8瓶啤酒。从来没有做过被囚禁的蠢事;我们都喝酒,我的朋友们都明白,疯狂的事情可能会发生,所以我们都对愚蠢的争吵、愚蠢的评论和财产破坏持保留态度。当然,这是在有弹药的情况下。我并没有真正停止喝酒,但从2015年开始,我每周喝一杯啤酒。有一天晚上,我因为紧张而喝酒;自尊心很低,这种感觉给我带来了很多问题。我最后都晕过去了;在这段时间里,我的活动(感谢宇宙)只在我自己的家里和我最好的两个朋友。
我在胡言乱语,我擅自闯入我室友的房间(在朋友1号上面),公然拿东西乱扔。我会去我的房间,说我没事,让我躺下,然后在10秒内,我又会走到客厅,表现得像个白痴一样,好像什么都没发生过。我一直在说同样的话,我大声地读出我的想法。我喝了多少或喝了什么与我在这里的帖子无关。问题是我晕过去了。细节对我自己来说是多余的,因为它让我痛苦地认为我甚至有能力做我被告知我正在做的事情。我记得一些最糟糕的....我洗了个澡,一丝不挂地走了出来,脑子里没有任何顾虑,跌跌撞撞地“表现得正常”,走进客厅,坐在电视沙发上,看着两个我真正尊敬的人,头脑清醒。但事实并非如此,就好像全身湿透、蓬头垢面、一丝不挂是正常的一样。天啊,怎么会发生这种事。 is all i keep saying. I must have thought I was clothed or at least covered. I fear this is really going to ruin friend #1 \ 2 and my own relationship wioth myself which isn't great all the time anyway.
我一清醒过来,就在房间里玩隐居游戏。1 .他把我的狗带出去,扔垃圾桶等。有一次我颤抖的手(他们仍然为任何打字错误感到抱歉)和足够的勇气,他问我是否头脑清醒,我说是的。他告诉我在昨晚过去的两个小时里我们已经讨论过11次了。所以我坐在那里,他肯定让我吃了。我都不知道说什么好了。他把我所做的事告诉了我,在此之前,我什么都记不清了。我知道出事了,但不知道发生了什么。他开始提起过去的事件,我性格和心态的属性,这令人震惊,因为他从来没有提到过这些事件有如此持久的影响。我理解移情的概念; im not a sociopath, but it only pushed my grief and pain and shame deeper down. I was so distraught I panicked and asked why he didn't tell me before, I asked why he didnt he said I'm a grown man I should know. He pulled the scalding father card "youre lucky we didnt kick your ass or knock you out' etc... His response was seething anger. His main tangent of arguing was that this is an ongoing issue. Not the drinkking or the INSANE drunk criminal behavior, but just aspects of what Ive done on impulse day to day that bother him. For example once I ate a few ceral bars and took a pack of smokes from him. We've been friends years, and each those times I made it right after him catching me red handed (strawberry filled bars) and for the latter I just straight up admitted it to him. He forgave me then. I took responsibility. He then went on and brought up things I didn't know about or even realize were HUGELY bothering him. I will omit the details but its similarly comparable in level of dastardliness to when I went into with entering his room while he's at work to say grab a pen or a pair of shorts. Those are examples and yes it's wrong to not ask an do that. Plain and simple. I know that and I never did those kind of thiings again. It's impulsive my stupid mind; it needs to be told not to do things otherwise my impuslivity will kiill me, He mentioned "he can't bring people over" becausae he's "afraid" I would offend. Not, buy drinking or acting a loon but just who I Am. I speak my mind so I get that people don't like to hear the truth. This is something I will work on now that it has hurt others. All this must have been his anger at me spilling over into other aspects of our living situation. GOing back into the previous night, he slayed me out some more: I was apparently also disrespectful verbally, and mumbling to people who weren't there; hallucinating and mumbling to my self incoherently. I was 0-100 with my impulse. How can I get him to believe me that I have learned and will by GOD NEVER do this. Im shaking crying and in so much shame but so defeated I can't even bear myself. Is that empathy? is that guiilt? I really feel I deserve the chance to prove that this was isolated; yet i twas so extreme how can I ever not forget but move on? I had no regard for anyone or theyre respect or dignity. I mean I committed indecent exposure essentially. Thats illegal here in the states! I didn't get sick or pass-out... I wish i did. I Just kept coming out my room nude 3 or 4 times, taking stuff that wasnt mine or moving our furniture. My friend (if he still is) 2 left in apparent disgust. I must have humiliated him and embarrassed not only me but especially those who trust me. I'm so overridden with pain now. Drinking never turned its back until Yesterday Feb 22 2018. I honestly can forgive myself, I honestly can move on, I know that honestly God forgives me or whatever the concept forgives me.
接下来的步骤只是改进。这成了我的新作案手法,不喝酒了。我觉得我有激情坚持到底,因为我有很多抱负、激情和梦想。我觉得我可以概念化这一点,因为我精神健康,性格明智,但我知道我必须遭受其他的东西,比如导致这一点的生理精神疾病。尽管如此,要求一个自称是你的好朋友的人真的太过分了吗?一个在我最值得的时候没有把我打到%%%%的人,一个如此接受的人,为了他自己的理智而让我保持一致?至少是为了他自己内心的平静。
嗯…
这是第二天,现在我不得不抽出时间给自己,基本上是隐居在我的房间里,围绕着我所做的一切和回忆,狠狠地打击自己。我指的是真正的数字。任何人对我说的话都不能像我自己打自己那样伤害我。他很快就会回家了……至于他的行为举止,他被忽略了,走过或快速嗨,他在这里或那里。我真的很想知道该怎么处理。在今天早些时候最初的简短谈话中,他不想谈论或听我的主观经验。这对他重要吗?我相信这件事应该马上解决,这样他就能感同身受,或者至少为我感到难过……为什么他要把这些小事情憋在心里,而这些小事情我很乐意去做,去改变,去肯定,去纠正。 Why did he wait until I do the ultimate stupid thing of my past 27 years. I told him (since nothing was broken) I would clean up the house and make it back to normal i.e. make it right physically. I asked for basic forgiveness with a valid sincere "brother I have made a bad judgement and my actions/behavior were incomprehensibly inexcusable" He didn't forgive me I think, at least didn't say it and albeit amicable he was not wanting to hear it I could tell.
几个小时过去了,他精神好多了。我的精神还是一团糟。我很惭愧。我想向他表达我的感受,但首先要问他谈话的适当界限是什么。我打字的时候他正在打电话。我很快地告诉他我想和他谈谈。这是我唯一能做的,但我可能永远不会原谅我自己。从我自己的行动中学习,从关心你的人的言语中学习。也许我们最终会分道扬镳,这很可悲,我这辈子都会带着那个芯片。我接受生活抛给你的一切,我只需要开始适应它,不再担心别人对我的看法。 They aren't important, not when my own mental anguish is causing my issues. It comes off callus but its the best thing I can think of doing now if we arent' on improved or amicable terms after this travesty. Advise? What do you think I should have done differently and do next? I know im a responsible adult but is it so bad to ask for a little outside accountability? Not baby sit just if someone says they are a good friend why is that such a difficult thing? This whole situation could have been avoided, (not me drinking, just friends 1 and 2 helping someone obivously in need instaid of just waiting it out and hating me for it.... I've been told I hold others accountable with their mistakes and they have thanked me. I wish someone can clear up my turbulent mind and make sense of this all for me. Please I can take all the shame humilation but I can't understand how this could have happened the way it did. When I asked friend 1 said "we tried closing you in your room, and locking the door" but my door doesn't lock he knows that.... Idk ive got so much cognitive dissonance IDK what im going to do.
在酗酒之后的几个月里,我一直在努力原谅自己。奇怪的是,这篇文章和阅读评论区其他人的故事让我感觉好多了,所以我想分享它是公平的。
我最好的朋友付钱让我去参加她和她的朋友们的活动,这让我兴奋了几个星期。那天,我第一次尝试了龙舌兰酒(坏主意),喝得太醉了,我昏了过去。第二天,我发现我做了一些相当可怕的事情;推别人,试图打架,诅咒她的朋友,基本上一整天都是一个**。酒精通常不会对我产生这种影响,断片是非常罕见的。我觉得在不同的情况下我可以很容易地原谅自己,但让我最好的朋友失望让我感到恶心=[她已经原谅了我,但这会让我有更多的时间来原谅自己。
我又一次因为酗酒而毁了圣诞节!奶奶的!17年夏天,我开始了一段新的恋情……终于,我遇到了我的梦中情人……我崇拜他,但他对我却没有同样的感觉……尤其是在今年平安夜的插曲之后。我不能喝酒....简单明了,我对自己的行为感到非常尴尬……非常沮丧,因为我失去了他。让我们回到我们认识几个月后....第一集… We were having drinks and once again I had way more than I could handle and insecurity not feeling good enough started creeping in.... Started telling him to go back to his ex and family and that he didn't love me. The next day I felt so ashamed...and apologized. He forgave me thank goodness. Now lets one year ago.... Episode 2... We are fairly new couple, our first Christmas together- we were head over heels for eachother and so happy that we found eachother (we are in our 40's and was new to the dating game ) A couple of nights before Christmas I had my friend in town for the holidays so naturally she came over to visit me. This is the first time for her meeting him and we had a blast! Then another friend came over ( was not invited by me but by the friend who was visititing) I had recently just started talking again to this "friend" after over a year of not talking so our relationship was still shaky. By the time she arrived I was already buzzing pretty good and my crazy mind was going...I could feel insecurity running thru my mind. Both of the friends left for a moment to go grab ice. During that time I lashed out at my boyfriend accusing him starring at the friend #2... Screaming at him that he was smittened with her etc.... saying some pretty mean things that he did not deserve He ended up leaving my house and I continued to drink by myself , In a rage... throwing presents, crying etc. This continued well into the next day. My neighbor called the cops and I received a noise complaint and a fine. I don't remember talking to the police at the door. My daughter filled me with the details as she came to my house at some point during my drinking bindge... After 2 days of drinking, it was time for me to hide in my bed, die with a hangover and hate myself for my behavior. My boyfriend came back, and told me he loved me and took care of me. He forgave me for my actions. I was so grateful that he still loved me. We put it behind us and enjoyed what was left of the holidays. Now lets move onto Episode 3 ... In May we went to Cuba for a week.... 2 Nd day in once again I drank too much and started a fight....that he wasn't attracted to me , that he didn't love me and so on. Needless to say he was hurt and upset with me a didn't talk to me for a good day... I apologized once again and asked him if we can please just enjoy the rest of our trip and It's best that I don't drink too much... We started speaking to eachother but through the rest of the trip it was off... I could feel the distance...I really fucked up and he was pulling away from me ... We arrived home and things started to get back to loving normalcy for us..... Months go by and we are back to the lovingcouple that I adored until one night this November....we are having wine....again I am drinking way too much... Started getting rude and saying mean things...shit he doesn't deserve. He told me he hates when I drink that I am a different person and that he is sick of it. He went to bed.... I slept on the couch. He didn't speak to me for a good couple of days...I begged him for his forgiveness and that I was sorry again... He told me the next time I treat him like that again that he is done with me. That he is not putting up with it.... he says in one breath that I am an alcoholic then says he don't care if I drink but I can't act the way I do and treat him so horribly or hes gone .... Now lets bring you to this Christmas Eve.... We go out, finish our shipping, come home have a beautiful seafood dinner and WINE..... Well I guess u know what happens next... Yep I drink too much and we are fighting , screaming at eachother.... He smashed our pictures.... Told me we were done..( as he said would happen if this shit happened again).... Woke up the next day (Xmas day) and cried ....so ashamed .... Gifts still sitting under our tree, him not speaking to me, my family worried about us, it is 4 days after the he does not want to talk to me. I have tried to communicate with him but he doesn't want to talk to me I seriously ruined it....I have contacted AA for some help.... I know full well I cannot drink...That it had ruined and will continue to ruin everything in my life. I have been feeling ashamed, sad, angry, lonely for days...all because of my alcoholic behavior. I Quit... I am done. I have a long road ahead of me but I will do this. Losing my love may be the savoir I need. Kills me that I hurt him so much.... So ashamed but hopefully in time we will both heal. Thanks for listening to me. Be good to one another xo
两天前的晚上,我去了女朋友家的圣诞派对。这是我第三次和她一起去。他们每年都有一次。在和女朋友见面之前,我和我的朋友一起出去玩。我和我哥们喝了杯Steelie,喝了一大罐keystone冰然后去见我女朋友。
她已经看出我有点醉了,但我说我没事。她在去的路上在加油站停了下来,买了一箱budlight啤酒。当我们走进她叔叔的房子时,所有的家人都已经在那里了,我拿起啤酒放在吧台上(她叔叔家里有一个内置的酒吧,很酷),不管怎样,我开始喝更多的酒。那天晚上,我想我已经喝了三瓶啤酒,然后我注意到威士忌,所以我喝了一杯威士忌。然后是另一个。那晚我只记得喝了这么多酒。
不管怎样,过了一会儿,她告诉我,我需要放慢速度,因为我是那里醉得最厉害的人,我让人们心烦意乱。但显然我没有停下来。第二天我在床上醒来,他们告诉我发生了什么。
显然我差点砸到她阿姨和她阿姨刚出生的婴儿,她的另一个家庭成员告诉她让我远离她13岁的儿子,因为我和他说话,喝醉了,还骂人。我根本不记得离开过。但她告诉我她阿姨给我做了酒精测试我的酒精浓度是0.27。
她说我们走了,我喝得太醉了,回不了家(我们和父母住在一起,我已经对回家的好斗行为进行了2次罢工),所以我们和一些朋友见面,去看了一场朋克表演,我想我和大家一起出去玩,在停车场上跑来跑去,表现得像个该死的傻瓜。他们发现我和一群我以为认识的人在一起,但当我表妹找到我时,人们说“谢谢你把她带来,我们甚至不知道她是谁”。我发誓我认识他们。我有一些闪回,但我不知道什么是真实的,什么不是。然后我和我女朋友吵了一架,说了些伤人的话,然后我无缘无故地想打我一个最好的朋友的头。就像我一样,他们说我很可怕,有时很有趣,然后真的很讨厌。我女朋友说我在她家的圣诞派对上让她很尴尬,我真的对自己和那天晚上感到很内疚。我出了洋相。我有酗酒问题,但我承认这一点,但我不想成为一个酒鬼。我想喝酒而不是昏厥,但每次我说我可以喝几杯啤酒放松一下,结果总是我变得一团糟,我记不住事情,做一些愚蠢和尴尬的事情,让人们生气。 Everyone knows that when I start drinking they're gonna have to deal with my dumbass. I always wake up with such bad hangovers. I can't drink in moderation.
有天晚上我想跟我妈打架。我想我需要治疗。我只是很伤心。
谢谢大家的分享。我感觉糟透了。昨晚我叫一个女孩滚蛋。我错了,她对我说话粗鲁,我只是做出了反应。好吧,我是错了,但你没必要这么粗鲁。所以现在我要粗鲁地回应,但我太过火了。
你喝醉的时候说的话总是有一定道理的。指出我在现实生活中遇到了这样的问题。
那是在一个工作圣诞派对的尾声。大多数人都走了,而它是一个陌生人。我感到非常羞愧和尴尬。担心工作被发现,毁了我的事业。
与别人经历过的事情相比,也许听起来还不错。我一直在为自己努力,就像…真的吗?你在干什么?我在醉醺醺的生活中做过很多不光彩的事情,但这些天不那么多了。
我要试着原谅自己。我不能道歉,因为是陌生人。但愿那姑娘能看出我是个喝醉酒的傻瓜,别往心里去。
对于那些有屈辱经历的人。我同情你。我们都犯过错误。你会熬过去的。怎么做?通过向他们学习。你可以改变。如果你重复这个过程,那么你可以再试一次。这种情况从未停止过。
我们都犯过错误。你会熬过去的。怎么做?通过向他们学习。你可以改变。如果你重复这个过程,那么你可以再试一次。这种情况从未停止过。
好点. .有道理,帮助了我。谢谢你!
你好。我真的需要帮助,我去了我的工作之夜,一切都是伟大的开始。我真的很紧张,因为我老板的家人也在那里,因为我工作的地方只有3个汉。前一秒我还不太好下一秒我就在医院对着老板哭了。我不知道发生了什么,我完全昏过去了,我很尴尬,记住我是那里第二小的,但不管怎样,我今天去上班了,我很害怕,也很尴尬,但我的老板周末给我发了短信,问我怎么样了,我确实向她的女儿和我的同事道歉了,但我还是很害怕。我去上班了,她说我很讨厌你,我都不忍心看你一眼。你毁了大家的夜晚。听到这些真让我想结束自己的生命。我有抑郁症,我喝酒来麻痹这种感觉,但我已经过去了,我每天晚上都想自杀,但警察阻止了我,我没有告诉我的老板或任何人,只告诉了我的同事。我只有19岁,我毁掉了一切我的老板不喜欢我所以不她的整个家庭,他们有权但我不知道发生了什么一分钟我不跟这个人,他给我买一个喝我们相处,我被告知我几乎不能走路,我一直在哭,想说的东西但不出来,然后我开始有一个适合我老板的女儿面前的。 But before tht apparently I was trying to bite my wrists. And no one knew why. But when they said tht to me I know why would do that. I scratched and bite wrists when I was in high school to try and kill myself and I do it when I get very low and go into a dark place and I’m afraid I’m in it again anf I cant find my way out. And the only way to get out if the embarrassment is to end my life. I guess the answer I’m hopjng for is maybe someone’s has done something like this before and if so how’s long do you feel this way. Cos I really need help and don’t be know how to ask.
我同情你,娜塔莉。我写信只是因为我担心你。
你犯了个错误。你的老板也没让你好过。对所发生的事毫无同情心。这太残酷了。这件事你已经把自己折腾得够惨了。你要善待自己。如果你给有同样经历的朋友提建议,你会对他们说什么?你会富有同情心和同情心。给你自己。关于工作,你所能做的就是道歉,毫无疑问你已经这样做了。 You turned up to work and faced things. That would have been so hard. Thats amazing.
如果在那里工作一段时间后感觉不好,如果可能的话,你可以考虑换一份工作。
你会没事的。
我也有一个愚蠢的醉酒时刻,我感到非常羞愧和尴尬。有一天晚上,我和朋友们出去玩,当他们回家的时候,我在一家酒吧下车,去见我的一个女朋友……我已经醉得很厉害了,我不知道为什么我当时没有回家……所以我去了酒吧,我失去了控制,喝了很多酒,喝了很多酒,我完全失去了知觉。第二天,我的朋友告诉我,我完全醉了,我在长椅上睡着了,和一个男人亲热,然后试图打一个女孩,我被赶了出来,然后就问别人要搭便车回家……幸运的是,它回家了....第二天我感觉很糟糕,因为这不是第一次发生不好的事情了。我已经决定戒酒了,但我只是希望能够原谅自己,不再去想那天晚上的事
自从新年以来,我第一次在周末喝酒,因为酒精真的不适合我;我再一次向自己证明了为什么我不该费心。每次我喝酒,都会因为某种原因和我的伴侣争吵。从来不是她,总是我——因为最愚蠢的理由。我真的很爱她,如果我失去她,我会死的,她意味着世界,但每次我喝酒,我感到尴尬,可怕,我不明白为什么她和我在一起?她喜欢出去和她的朋友们一起喝酒跳舞,当我和她在一起的时候,她觉得很安全,但不管我喝什么,似乎总是以同样的方式结束,这让我变得讨厌。我非常爱这个女孩,我想和她出去跳舞,玩得很开心,但我觉得如果我继续下去,她就不会和我在一起了,因为她为什么要这样做呢?我不是故意这样做的,醒来被告知,阅读我发送的信息只是让我感到恶心,因为我说的事情没有一个是真实的。我充满了抱歉,我觉得我说得再多也不够,因为伤害已经造成了。这是我第一次见到她最好的朋友和她的伴侣,我刚刚让自己看起来像个公鸡,因为我有点醉了,所以嫉妒了一些事情。 I just wish this hadnt have happened, drunk me just seems to overthink without the thinking and just acts on things that arent even true. Right now I dont know what to do, I love my girlfriend so much and I don't want her to leave; but at the same time, I dont want to make her have to put up with this each time she'd like us to have a drink together, so i think im screwed :(
我回来了!是啊,现在是凌晨3点46分,我已经昏昏沉沉了。是的,我出去喝了各种朗姆酒和龙舌兰酒。哦,是的,今晚的专题,我到处告诉人们我做的各种事情都是假的,我是为了让他们看起来更好。因为你知道我还不够好我自己是谁我要成为更好的人比真正的我更酷的人。我记录这些的原因,是为了让其他人发现某种Soace他们并不孤单。我为自己和我所做的一切感到非常羞愧。我妻子昨晚走的时候很生气,而我一点都不关心?这一切都是我的错这一切都是我的责任。就在24小时前,我还在发这个或者其他不那么尴尬的东西。 Just so you know my wife is probably going to leave me because my drinking. And I don't blame her one bit. How can I expect her to watch somebody she loves kill themselves slowly each day. Just when I thought things were going to get any worse LOL guess what? My worst nightmare Happened. I'm such a loser! My sweet wife just wants me to be healthy and sober. And she's just tired of the alcohol? She works so hard, deserve way better than me. Like I said this morning, I went right out and bought another bottle. I lied to people for no reason, I'm the worst sorry excuse for a human!
谢谢大家,你们所有痛苦的、发自内心的故事真的让我觉得我并不孤单。我喝。我喝很多酒,每天都喝,早上也喝。我喜欢龙舌兰酒,它只知道如何聚会。我今天醒来,每天都在自我打击,感觉自己是最大的失败者。我真的想辞职,但我做不到?吓死我了。我吃美沙酮止痛,每晚喝一品脱以上的酒?我害怕我可能上床就再也醒不过来了?很多事情我都希望我能收回,只是这个反复出现的噩梦我无法控制!奶奶的! I've got to get through today and not drink! I have to but I'm probably gonna go get a fucking bottle as soon as the liquor store opens. I feel so useless.