原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为

我恨我自己。我总是喝得太多。我所有的朋友和家人都知道我是一个酒量不好的人。我需要戒酒，但这太难了，因为我周围的每个人都能喝酒而不滥用它。我似乎是唯一一个在挣扎的人，我感到很孤独。我做过太多让我难以释怀的事，每次默哀的时候，它们都会在我脑海中浮现。有一段时间，我以为我已经不再喝酒了，因为我经历了所有的糟糕经历，宿醉的想法要了我的命。但几天前，我又去了一个派对，喝得烂醉。夜晚的结束是模糊的。我做了很多让我后悔的事，但这些事让我印象深刻。 I first said I said something really messed up to my friend's crush. I said I was sorry but I honestly am so dumb for that and I feel horrible. Then I went up front waiting for my ride and literally was on the floor, people were picking me up. I went to the neighbor's house and have no idea what I was doing there but I didn't go inside luckily. I don't even know how I got to the place where I slept. I just don't know what happened in some parts and that drives me crazy. I don't know what I did or said. I also don't know what happened to my body. It's been a few days but I am going insane just playing this night in my head. I overanalyze every single situation in my life already, but the fact that I don't know what happened is making me livid. I'm trying to forgive myself for this and all those other times but honestly, all these embarrassing drunken moments make me want to end it.

在过去的几年里我一直在酗酒....甚至更多!两天前，我在大约2小时内喝了半瓶杜松子酒和一瓶葡萄酒，最后住进了医院!我摔倒了，昏了过去，我自己设法叫了救护车，然后拒绝和他们一起去。当他们把我送到医院时，我自己出院了，头部的伤没有缝合。我感到很尴尬，这一切都是在我的两个小家伙睡觉的时候完成的。我现在为自己感到羞愧:-(

我没有酗酒问题，但我有感情问题。我今年37岁，几乎一生都有过约会的经历，而且在第一天晚上就完全醉了。距离我的上一段恋情已经过去一年了，那是我最长的一段恋情之一，持续了一年半。是的，第一晚我喝了很多酒，而他仍然很清醒，这让我很尴尬。然而，他坚持在我身边，甚至第二天给我端汤来。但那天晚上我遇到了一个人，就像我提到的，我在约会网站上认识了一个人，他比我小十岁，我觉得他很不成熟。他来我家，他还没到，我就已经喝了半瓶(中号)伏特加。接下来我就醉了，我们发生了性关系，这可能是他经历过的最糟糕的性关系，因为我变得超级没有安全感，我说了很多废话，我的问题和我的过去，通常还会说教很多。不管怎样，他完成了他的生意(经过一段时间，由于我目前的状态，我不会从中得到任何东西)，甚至没有说再见就立即离开了。第二天我不仅觉得自己像个废物，而且觉得自己像个失败者，丑陋，可悲，你能想到的都有。我只是想要陪伴，但我不知道为什么我觉得我必须喝酒才能舒服地与男人建立联系。

所以我每隔一段时间就会有这个问题，当我过量饮酒时(尤其是涉及大麻的时候)，我注意到自从大流行以来，我的情况变得更糟了。我往往会因为男朋友不花时间陪我或不想出去喝酒而生气。他是个电脑玩家，我通常不会因为他玩电脑而生气，但有时当我喝醉时，一切都变得很糟糕。我猜这是因为我不愿意一个人喝酒，但同时我也希望我的脑海里有一个理性的声音告诉我要冷静下来。我们不需要总是一起喝酒，他也不需要总是什么都告诉我等等。但当我喝醉的时候，我开始想他没有做的事情，而不是我希望他在做的事情。在某种程度上，这是一种非常自私的心态，就好像我忘记了他为我做的所有好事一样。当我这样的时候，我很害怕，因为这几乎就像玩轮盘赌一样，永远不知道那天晚上我会醉成什么样。我要么是开心的醉了，要么是疯狂的女友醉了。例如，昨晚我不小心玩了断路器，关掉了他的电脑(我实际上不知道第一个开关会这样做，但我也不知道我为什么会想到它?) It’s as if the personality of a crazy girlfriend took over me . I don’t know what came over me but I’m still in disbelief as to why I did that. me and my bf made up and I told him I’ll work on it but im afraid of it happening again. I just wish I was always that chill drunk but like I said it’s like a game of roulette and I can’t predict my drunk emotions. I really hope the next time I can control my emotions better. Because I like to drink and I don’t want to have to stop because I can’t control my emotional behavior. I’m sure it has something to do with my overall health, the potency of the alcohol and how crossfaded I get but I hate replaying my embarrassing moments in my head and wishing I can go back in time and never do them. I just want to move on and forgive myself. But It’s so hard especially when I keep repeating them. As a tomboy growing up, I really don’t want to turn into a nightmare girlfriend lol

嗨。我正在为周五做的一件非常尴尬的事而挣扎。我正在办理离婚手续。上周，我和一个非常帅的男人进行了一次很棒的约会，我们之间产生了很好的化学反应。不幸的是，在经历了特别艰难的一周之后，周五我和我的姐妹们喝得酩酊大醉，显然我给这个家伙发了短信或打了电话。我只记得他给我发短信说我吓到他了。我把手机里的所有东西都删了，当时我还醉得不知道自己做了什么，说了什么。第二天早上我道了歉，但我知道我再也见不到他了。我真是个白痴，觉得自己很蠢，很羞愧，很生自己的气，因为我毁了一件本可以很有趣的事情。需要一些帮助来原谅自己。

我非常感谢这里所有的帖子，它帮助了我很多。所以我想分享我的故事。我已经酗酒两年了。我最近和另外两个人搬进了一套新公寓。他们真的很好，我感到很受欢迎。就在我搬进来的第四天，我们去参加了一个派对。我喝得太醉了……我什么都不记得了。但是，事实证明，我把我的毒瘾告诉了我的新室友。我们进行了一次非常坦诚但也令人尴尬的谈话。 They now know about my addiction. I still don't know what went down that evening. I'm afraid of all the embarrasing things I did or if I might sexually harassed someone. I begged my romemates not to tell me anything, it would have ruined me. Even though I don't know what happened, I'm feeling so guilty and bad. I ruined my whole life because of alcoholism. Please don't do what I did. Please get help
顺便说一下，英语不是我的第一语言，所以请原谅我

我真的有一个尴尬的醉酒的夜晚,这是一个官方党与许多建筑师、规划师,等等,我是一个新鲜的21岁女性和许多人一样,这是我第一次正式聚会,我做了一个很大的错误,因为我喝了很多的饮料是免费的,直到我完全空白,在我的记忆中我看到一些自己在男厕所问一些官员来帮助我的衣服,我穿了一件连身衣那一天,我问一个人打电话给我的朋友带我回家,我觉得很热，我想看色情片自慰，我不记得我是否在公共场合自慰，如果我有，它每天都困扰着我。我在和我实习过的公司的一位官员聊天，聊天的时候我放屁，那声音太大了。还有一幅图片是我脱下我的内衣，当它弄湿了，我拿着它和别人谈论它，我睡在地板上，有人帮助我。我跑去拿纸巾，吐了很多。
那天我因为酒精毁了自己，我无法忘记这已经一年多了，有时我想结束我的生命，这是我的错，是我自己，我为自己感到羞愧，我是个彻头彻尾的白痴。

我一直在努力原谅自己几个月前的醉酒行为。我和我的男朋友和我喝一个晚上宵禁,但搞砸了,让它回家,所以他带我进他的家去见他的妈妈,看看我可以过夜,介意你他从未让任何人去见他的妈妈除了我,让我感觉更糟,但无论如何我要昏倒了,当我见到她,我不穿内衣(个人选择)显然脱了裤子,让她纹身在我的大腿上。她和他的阿姨一起看到了我的私人区域，我不记得那样做了，我仍然留下来过夜，但那天晚上我让我自己和我的男朋友很尴尬。第二天，我在清醒的状态下和她谈了话，向她道歉，她很感激，我们也没事了。几周后，我和他又喝酒了，我们决定在他家过夜，我记得我们把车停在他家门口，我们在外面停了一会儿，我想进去睡觉，但我男朋友仍然想喝他的饮料，这是我最后的记忆。第二天早上，我在他的房子里醒来，身上没穿裤子，披着一条毯子。现在，他的床在客厅里，大家都去的地方。我在外面的卡车上找到了我的裤子，我穿上裤子又走了进去。不过这次他妈妈也在里面，她告诉我，他爸爸和他阿姨、哥哥那天早上去上班的时候看到我半裸着，记得我没穿内衣，所以他们看到了一切!我感到非常羞愧。 I talked to her again later that day and she was furious, she forgave me but it wasn’t the same. Let’s just say one more thing happened to where as I was sober but still got the blame. My boyfriend laid his hands on me one night while he was blacked out at her house, she was telling me that it wasn’t who he is, this and that (although she tells me the drunk stuff I did to her is who I am and I don’t blame her but it’s not true, I never liked alcohol 6 months ago and I never meant to harm anyone, I always apologized.) and she called the cops on him, they couldn’t find him so they left (he was under the bed that whole time lmao) but anyways I didn’t wanna be there when he woke up so I called my cousin to pick me up, I told her what happened and told her not to tell anyone. She told her boyfriend and he got mad mine laid my hands on me so he went up and hit my boyfriends moms car! I told him to get in wtf was he doin that wasn’t my boyfriends car.. even made him go back and apologize but she was mad. She thought we were trying to bash out her car windows but he didn’t and I had no idea he was gonna do that. I am no longer allowed near her house and I know her dislike for me is strong. I’m a good person, his family thinks that I’m just a drunk and always blames me for my boyfriends drunk behavior also but that’s not the case. I got a job again, quit drinking but it don’t do any good with them, they don’t care. Just sucks it had to be like that. Sucks I had to drink. Anyways drinking led to those embarrassing and shameful events, I regret it a lot. I wish they knew that wasn’t who I am. I wish I never done those things. I still feel so shitty.

需要一些帮助，有人让我平静下来…周末我和朋友适度饮酒，很少有问题。我不认为自己是个酗酒的人，有时我几个月不喝酒，有时我连续3天喝酒。这是非常不稳定的，取决于场合(婚礼，城里的朋友等)偶尔(大约一年一次)，我在我家乡的市中心的时候会变黑。我住在一个小镇上，所以我说的话和做的事都会让我后悔，因为每个人都认识我和我的家人。不管怎样，最近我在市中心喝得很醉，只记得一些瞬间。我记得有一次和一位年长的女士的谈话，她是我们家的朋友，我不太了解。我记得我喝醉了，一遍又一遍地问同样的问题，直到她让我离她远点，她说我是个白痴。我不记得我说了什么/做了什么让她这么难过，但我知道她没那么醉，这让情况更糟。我真的希望我没有对她做任何不合适的事情，因为那根本不像我。 But I cant remember fully. My girlfriend was in the same bar, but across the way so I feel like if it was something inappropriate it would have caused a scene and my girlfriend would have been mad at me. After I got yelled at I went up to another couple and was in this girls face and she kept backing up and I kept trying to talk to her and she told me to back away. The music was super loud and I was just trying to talk but I think she thought I was the weirdest guy in the planet as my face inched closer as she kept backing away. Turns out we have mutual friends and this was the first time they met me...great. I can't function for some time when this happens. It replays in my head for days and weeks after. I am banking on the fact that they know deep down I don't typically act like that and that I am a good person, but I just don't know. I can't get over it and I'm afraid to bring it up to anyone just incase they end up revealing more bad things I did and then I have to start all over with the shame and guilt. Thanks in advance...

呃，我只是想在这里分享一下，因为我喝醉后所做的一切让我感到羞愧和恶心。我刚刚有了一个新的开始，搬了家，找了一份新工作，一切都很顺利，直到我开始在工作中被欺负。我试着保持低调，什么都不说，但情况太糟了，我被请病假了。我当时很混乱，因为我真的以为我有一份终身工作，是在当地议会工作，但事情并没有进展。他们让我做了一个Facebook来和他们保持联系。我删除了信使，因为它只是恒定的，我无法逃脱。那天晚上，那个团伙头目想加我为好友，我没理他，然后她的家人又想加我为好友。我真的很兴奋，因为我只是想一个人呆着，最后我喝了杯酒，只是啤酒，但我崩溃了，我开始发关于那个欺负人的醉汉的帖子，说我女儿的爸爸死了，希望人们不要再问她是否有爸爸，其他的东西说我生病了，想一个人呆着，我只是不好意思看着我说的话。当我早上醒来时，我感到非常尴尬，我觉得我是被推着走的，我上当了，现在我完全成了一个傻瓜，看起来像个十足的疯子。我从没想过要开户。 I quickly deleted the account, wrapped up my work stuff, posted it with my notice saying my health couldn't take it. I suffer from depression and anxiety, so can get really triggered and alcohol makes it so much worse I don't know why I drink. I basically ran away I was so embarrassed. I can't believe I let it get to me and now I look like a total fool because of my drinking. I'm 36 and I'm. So embarrassed what I am going to tell people why I left my job. My so called friend must've seen the posts (I didn't put many people due to management on there) he was so abrupt the next day and cancelled to see me. Most friends were supportive and said to just leave. But because of the job, alot of so called friends said I was being sensitive and to stick it out. Well I tried that and then made an ass of myself. Just wish I could run away

那天晚上是我朋友的生日派对，他们开了一辆派对巴士，开往不同的酒吧，非常有趣!我很开心，我的男朋友也很开心，但是…我喝了酒，喝了很多酒，所以我基本上就昏过去了。我们到了他们家，大概在那里呆了10分钟，我开始大哭起来，不知道是什么原因。当我喝醉的时候，这种情况经常发生，真的很尴尬。我只记得和朋友出去透透气，就这样。我男朋友说他认为只有几个人看到了我，但我不知道这是否完全正确，我想他是想照顾我的感受。但我对此感到非常尴尬，我觉得我可能毁了今晚。最重要的是他妈妈看到我也在哭....我讨厌这种感觉，我再也不想喝酒了!

你好,
我在为醉酒的愚蠢之夜而挣扎。
我是一个10个月大的孩子的新妈妈，我和我孩子的父亲处于一种非常有毒的自恋关系中，大多数时候我觉得我对分手处理得很好，但有些日子我可以看到我仍然没有让自己愈合和处理。(我在怀孕7个月的时候离开了他)不管怎样，我刚开始和一个朋友出去玩，我有一段时间没有和她出去玩了，因为我的前任因为很多原因不喜欢她，她超级放荡，有点野，但她很诚实和开放。不管怎样，我说要再和她出去玩，我们出去玩的5次中有4次都喝了酒。那四次中有两次我喝得太醉了，昏过去了，晚上大部分时间都忘了，第一晚还不算太糟，那天晚上我只是对她的一个朋友有点粗鲁。但是正好是星期一的晚上,和我太太太醉了,我又一次粗鲁地对待她的一个朋友,长话短说,他打我,我不是我认为可能不是最好的,但就像我说我涂黑的晚上我不记得全部细节,但最大的可能是除了我那么讨厌的一整夜,那么多讽刺,和奇怪的蹩脚的笑话,我性感的朋友也触及人她看。我不知道我是怎么勾搭上他的，但我肯定这让我很不安。当我意识到我他妈做了什么，我把我的朋友叫到我的房间，关上门，告诉她嘿，我勾引了你的男人。我很抱歉。她装作若无其事的样子。但事实并非如此，他们在那之后不久就离开了，现在我的朋友已经好几天没和我说话了。 I first off was a wild drunk, second off hit on the dude she is all about , and was so excited for me to meet and I made a complete ass of myself. I feel so ashamed because first off I hate making mistakes like this because I am a mother, I hate that I allowed myself to get like this yet again like I’m 19 again. I have been over thinking the whole night for the last few days I just feel like an awful shitty person. I really just don’t know my alcohol limit after having a child less than a year ago and my friends limit is sooo high I can’t keep up and when I try I do the most stupidest shit. All I keep thinking about is what I kinda shit I said that I don’t remember , and wow what is she thinking about and what the other 2 people we’re thinking. I am my hardest critic I just feel like an over all awful person, and just trashy as all hell. I know in sometime it won’t hit me like it is now, but I just don’t know how to cope properly with it all. I do know that like I stated I don’t know my limit and that is a huge sign for me to really take a break, like I said it’s only been 2 times that I got like this for years but , wow do I ever just feel like an awful horrible person.

嘿，昨晚是我兄弟21号，我喝得很醉，但我玩得很开心。我是异性恋，但我和一个女孩跳舞，她吻了我，告诉我她不是，但吻后我说对不起，我是异性恋。在那之后，当我和其他人跳舞时，她对我很生气，然后离开了。我没有想太多，但我刚醒来，我哥哥就告诉我我们是如何在所有人面前接吻的，比如朋友和家人，尤其是阿姨和表兄妹。我真的希望他们不要以此来评判我，我感到很羞愧。在我哥哥告诉我所有人都看到之前我都没觉得有那么糟。我希望我没有误导那个女孩。我不知道该怎么办。

我刚和男朋友分手，因为他打了我，把我的眼睛打青了我很沮丧，和我的朋友出去喝了酒，最后去了一个朋友家，他们说我太大声了，最后在有门禁的地方徘徊，有人叫保安，以为我是小偷。我在他的沙发上尿尿，因为我不能走路。我现在感觉像死了一样，因为房子里有人。我患有抑郁症很长一段时间，酗酒做了很多坏事，是时候戒烟了，甚至在这个过程中丢了我的手机。我不知道我该如何克服这些。压力太大了。我想重新开始，但我做过的事情折磨着我。我甚至无法入睡。我希望他们没有拍视频。我决定远离酒精来修复我的生活。我只是担心他们永远不会原谅我

你好玛丽,
我才意识到我只是评论了你的回复，并没有发送回复。我的帖子是5月29日发布的，如果可以删除那就太好了。非常感谢你创造了一个平台，让每个人都可以表达自己，并感到被认可。
谢谢你！
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你好,
我想删除我在这里发表的评论。我想彻底忘记这种情况
谢谢

我甚至不知道从哪里开始…从2014年起，我开始喝断片酒，情况非常糟糕，我醒来时对之前发生的事情感到害怕和困惑，这给我与伴侣和朋友的关系带来了问题。我觉得我的朋友们不会那么难受，因为他们知道我是什么样的人，但对于陌生人看着我，这肯定就像这个女孩到底怎么了(在我看来)，这很奇怪，因为我会完全没事的，酒精就会莫名其妙地打我，我曾经认为这是香烟和酒精的结合，但有时我甚至不吸烟，所以我不知道这是什么……我大约3年前戒了酒，我只在生日的时候喝酒，或者在庆祝的时候喝1-2杯，但我严重地避免了酒精，开始关注自己，因为断片真的对我的精神健康造成了损害，而且发现你断片时做的事情非常尴尬。有人告诉我，我好像被另一个人附身了，因为我的行为不像我自己，我开始摇晃，到处摔倒。我说的话毫无意义。前几天我和我的伴侣出去参加乔房聚会，我随意地喝酒来热身(因为我不认识这些人，我有社交焦虑)，我喝着冷却器，因为我不想喝得酩酊大醉，在我去那里之前我也吃了一大堆食物……枪声开始响起，我一直说不，最后向他们屈服了……但让他们倒很小的酒……我最后昏过去了，发现我可能摔倒在地上6-7次，可能出丑了，我真的很尴尬，因为这些都是我男朋友的亲密朋友，所以他们对我的看法肯定对我很重要……我不知道现在该怎么办，我不好意思见到他们/和他们说话....我很难过，我让我男朋友陷入了那种境地……当我们在一起的时候，我告诉过他，我是个很糟糕的酒鬼，这就是为什么我不喝酒的原因，但我认为当我告诉他时，他并没有把这当回事……我对这整件事感觉糟透了…他说他没疯，但我敢肯定他疯了，因为我刚才在他那些刚认识我的朋友面前出丑了。

我感到很尴尬。我需要把这个说出来。昨晚我出去庆祝，晚餐吃了一大杯玛格酒。当我们离开时，我完全没事，有人开车带我们去第二个地点时，我开始感觉到它。我朋友在第二家店点了一杯酒，我也喝了一些。然后突然我就不舒服了。我不记得付钱、上车、开车回家，或者回到我的公寓。我很讨厌那样。然后最糟糕的事情发生了。我尿床了。 thankfully i live alone and not a soul knows this about me. i plan on taking it to the grave. i’m so embarrassed and no one even knows but i’m my worst critic. last night has me thinking of giving up alcohol. i don’t drink often and i’ve only ever been drunk maybe six times bc i have a fear of losing control (hence why i’m so SO ashamed of this incident). i haven’t cried about it but i feel like i need to. blacking out from drinking is the scariest thing for me and i don’t know what to do.

大家好，今天下午我在这里分享我的故事，因为我在一年半前犯了一个错误，每当我想到它时，我的心情就会变得很糟糕。那是我大学一年级的时候，我遇到了一个男人，自从我们一起出去玩后，我很快就喜欢上了他，大约两个月后，我问他是否喝酒，因为他已经成年了，所以我知道他有点酒。他让我过去拿他的轩尼诗，那是那种长瓶似的瓶子。他告诉我，我可以在这里住一段时间，但不能过夜，因为他早上有工作。我对自己说，为什么不喝得酩酊大醉，这样我就不用离开了。哈哈请注意，我从来不喝酒，也从来没喝醉过。最后我在45分钟到一个小时内喝光了一整瓶酒，甚至在我喝完之前，他问我是否想停下来，把剩下的留到另一个晚上，我说不，所以他就让我做我想做的事。长话短说，我走到他面前想吻他什么的，一切都很好，直到我的头最终倒了下来(他告诉我的)，他知道我醉得什么都做不了，所以出于尊重他停了下来。酒精开始对我产生严重的影响，我最终无法走路(甚至几乎无法用手和膝盖站立)。 I told him I needed to use the bathroom but mind you he stayed in a dorm still and the bathroom was outside his room so he said he wouldn’t let me go till I could show him I could walk by myself cause he didn’t want someone to see me in that state. I really had to go and he didn’t wanna help me so I said “fine then I’m just gonna piss myself” and so I did on his floor.... and eventually fell to the floor (I felt paralyzed), started throwing up, and then began shaking cause I started to feel so cold. I felt so scared and I remember telling him that. I literally couldn’t control myself at that point and he had me crawl over to him so he could clean the throw up out of my hair for me. He changed me into some night clothes and put me into bed (he had an extra bed in his room cause it was for 2 people but it was an old dorm so everyone go their own room). When I woke up I didn’t remember much of what had happened and he gave me a cup of water and some bread before he left for work. I asked him what happened last night and he said he’d just tell me later (cause it was embarrassing obviously) but I insisted on in telling me and he told me what happened but then he also told me I asked him if he was going to rape me... I don’t remember saying that at all but I felt like the worst person ever cause I’d been messing around with him prior to this and I’ve never thought about him in that way. But I guess since I felt paralyzed and being raped is one of my biggest fears that’s why I said it to him. I kept saying sorry to him and he said it’s okay but I knew it wasn’t. He just told me to stop saying sorry cause it’s not gonna change anything (not in a mean way) and that he wasn’t mad. I’m thankful that out of all people it happened in front of him cause he’s a genuine guy but since then every time I see him in person or on social media I feel nervous, embarrassed, and stupid. I see what I did that night when I look at him. He’d usually has to say hi to me first cause I feel like I shouldn’t even say hi. I hung out with him like 1 or 2 more times after all that happened so he def forgave me but I still feel so bad knowing I did that in front of him cause he was actually a good dude and I tend to put people on a pedestal. I can’t say I feel fully better about it even a year and a half later and even now that he has graduated (So I don’t have to see him all the time) I feel bad and this whole thing has stopped me from wanting to let another guy in cause I’m afraid of doing something stupid again. Idk how to forgive myself.

我约了一个以前一起工作的家伙出去玩，结果我们一起出去喝了几杯。那天什么都没吃，喝得酩酊大醉，之后什么都不记得了。我女朋友来看我，发现我今天和她男朋友还有他的同事在一起。我在他们面前摔了一跤，然后整晚做了更多尴尬的事情，我不记得了。我都不知道该怎么恢复过来。在所有。已经两天了，我还是忍不住想起我做的那些愚蠢的决定。

读这些故事让我觉得不那么孤单了。从十几岁开始，我就有酗酒的问题。我最近一直很乖，因为我知道不该出去玩，但那天晚上我太兴奋了，当然也玩过头了。是和一些同事和他们的朋友。首先，我们去了一家酒吧，我喝了3瓶啤酒，但在离开时，我的前任主管问我是否想和他以及他的朋友一起出去玩。我只记得那晚的一些片段，但我知道我们当时坐在他朋友的公寓里喝威士忌，我激动地谈论着任何话题。我有焦虑，我总是认为我很混乱，语无伦次，暴露了太多我的个人经历，但我太焦虑了，不敢问。在我的生活中，我有过很多次这样的感觉，我非常努力地告诉自己，一两个月或三个月后，这一切都没关系，但我发现，在一个令人尴尬的醉酒之夜后的几天里，我竟然大声地说“我恨我自己”。这是一个病态的循环，因为我知道喝酒会让自己陷入这些情况，但我仍然告诉自己我喜欢喝酒。