原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为

好吧，既然它帮助我阅读这些，我想我应该分享一些我的
当我喝醉的时候，我真的很同性恋和好色，有时开始和朋友亲热。感谢上帝，他们还是我的朋友。我总是在公共场合或在其他朋友面前这样做，这让情况变得更糟，我仍然记得震惊的表情，它们实际上困扰着我，我可能会因此患上PDSD，因为我有时会随机记住那些表情，尖叫或出于反射说“f”这个词，我的肌肉会不由自主地运动，就像一秒钟的小癫痫发作一样。
我是一家俱乐部的常客，也是出了名的酒鬼。可能是最大的。有一次我不能合上我的裤子，向保安求助，哈哈
有一次，我喝醉了，可能是最糟糕的一个晚上，我不能走路，所以两个朋友带我回家。我坚持让他们写一个和我约会过的人写我真的很爱他。从那以后就没有他的消息了。
这张还不错，是上周拍的
之后我就决定戒酒了我记得我和人们交谈，为过去的不当行为道歉，然后我昏过去了，但又站起来，结果被保镖赶了出去，因为我手指上的一个小伤口突然流血不止。

大家好！我29岁了，和我美丽的未婚夫订婚了，今天我有一个3个月大的女儿。我的未婚夫自从有了孩子就一直呆在家里，我知道她想要社交，想要走出家门，所以我告诉她在我照顾孩子的时候出去玩。她和我一个最好的朋友的女朋友和其他3个女同事出去了，她们都很投缘，玩得很开心，而且这是她们中的一些人第一次见到我的未婚夫，和她一起出去玩。我毁了一切，一切。
我是一个酒鬼，我每天都喝酒，通常是葡萄酒或苏格兰威士忌。
我所记得的是我失去了控制，当我的未婚夫带着所有的女孩回家时，我几乎站不直了，她很生气(我一点也不怪她)，她开始对我尖叫，我失去了控制，我用可怕的名字骂她，当我的朋友试图插足我们之间时，我把他推到餐桌上，我威胁要杀了所有人，然后吐得到处都是。
我迷迷糊糊地醒来，不记得发生了什么事，我意识到我喝了一整瓶詹姆森酒。我的未婚夫被锁在房间里，告诉我她不想见我，我今天不上班，明天就进去。我不知道如何表现我的脸，我很尴尬，我觉得自己是在浪费生命，我想去死。
我所做的一切都是为了我的家人，我爱他们胜过世界上的任何东西，他们是我的生命。
但我让他们失望了，我不知道如何从中恢复。
这不是我第一次喝醉酒生气了。
我想是我彻底戒酒的时候了。
我现在恨死自己了。
阅读所有这些故事帮助我度过了一天。我身上有瘀伤，手腕也不知道怎么被割伤了，我想是在墙上打了个洞。
我一直在治疗我的愤怒问题，现在我不知道我是否也应该去嗜酒者互戒会，哈哈
就好像我在重复我的童年，只不过我不是那个害怕的孩子，而是那个拿着瓶子的愤怒的人。
好吧，是时候改变了，我只是不知道从哪里开始解决我制造的这个烂摊子。

我确实不知道什么时候该停下来，尤其是当我心烦意乱的时候。
前几天晚上，我和我的伴侣去喝了几杯，她因为一件很小的事情和我吵了起来。她怒气冲冲地走出了我们住在附近的爱尔兰酒吧，我经常去那里，因为那里非常好，调酒师都是非常友好的爱尔兰人。
她走后，我很沮丧，又喝了几杯，这让我陷入了昏睡状态。在酒吧里，我和每个人都很健谈，一个男人一直骚扰我，不让我一个人呆着。我把他赶出了酒吧我觉得自己出丑了。我想也许酒保能理解，但我还是不想再去那里了，希望不会像我有时那样在附近看到酒保。
另外，我可能不小心没付钱就走了。我真的相信我付了钱，但我的一部分认为我可能没有，这让我感觉很糟糕。
我在考虑给那家酒吧寄张卡片，附上一封道歉信和一些钱来支付费用。我真的不知道我付了没有。一半对一半，但我认为还是值得的。
还是说我应该就此打住，彻底避开这个地方?

我醒着躺在床上为我昨晚的行为感到内疚。我和同事出去喝白兰地的时候突然想到了这一切。我总是这样，我向自己保证我不会因为工作而喝醉，因为我不想让他们看到我的另一面。感觉非常糟糕，非常尴尬，我只希望我没有表现得太过分。

一个周六的下午，我喝得酩酊大醉，我和丈夫在和别人吵架。我去我的儿子和他的父母midsentance忘了我要说什么,如此尴尬,他们知道我喝醉了所以剧院给我老公发短信,他们需要跟我们所以我丈夫叫他和他们战斗和我父亲在法律上说我们是坏的父母,因为我们的女儿和一个朋友,我们不知道她是我随机叫这个女孩和妈妈翻了她,但我甚至不能记住我说的话。后来我突然振作起来，一切都很好，但我无法克服，我想自杀。我就是无法停止这种感觉，现在我恨我自己。我觉得这是我人生的最低谷。
帮助我

我感到有点宽慰，因为我不是唯一一个经历断片和随之而来的所有可怕的事情的人，尽管这些故事非常悲伤。我也是一个很容易失去知觉的人……我需要想要和某人谈谈我一直在处理的经历。这很有趣，因为我以前从来没有这么容易就昏过去，但今年每次我喝酒都很糟糕。
我有三个短故事和一个长故事要讲。
第一次不太糟糕的时候是5月份，当时我在我男朋友的朋友的孩子的生日派对上。最后我把干邑白兰地和龙舌兰酒混在一起喝，他们说我只是在傻里傻气地跳舞，所以也没那么糟，但我男朋友对此不太高兴。提醒你一下，他不喝酒。他就是不喜欢喝酒，也不选择喝酒。这很好。但第二天早上醒来，我忘了我们是怎么回家的，甚至忘了我们是什么时候离开的。
第二件事更糟糕一些。现在是下个月，我们为我男朋友的朋友在一所房子里举行了毕业庆典。我们都在外面，没什么疯狂的。氛围很好。我觉得有时候当我和我男朋友一起出去的时候，他不怎么和我在一起，所以无论他在哪里，我总是要去找他，看看他在做什么。有时候有点烦人，但我想玩得开心。老实说，我是个宅男，我不怎么出去，也没有朋友，所以我只去参加我男朋友邀请他和朋友一起参加的活动。我本来没打算喝那么多的，但当你周围的人每隔10分钟左右就会“喝啊喝啊”时，我感觉很难。所以我在打针，接下来你知道我有点昏迷。我穿着一件低胸背心，在那段时间里我总是要把它拉起来，我想我是想搞笑，当我的胸罩向一些和我一起喝酒的女孩展示时，我有几次向她们露出了我的乳头。 I guess I was also being too friendly with some like random fat guys dancing around - not with them - but also taking snapchats with them on their phones or something (which I wanna say they are absolutely not my type and not the least bit attractive to me) anyways I guess I was being a little too "ratchet" and embarrassing my boyfriend so he decided to just drop me off at home and on the way to the car I guess I threw up in the driveway and he ofc had to carry and drag me in the house. I didn't know he went back to the party but when he came back home to wake me up and confronted me about what I did and what had happened I was still drunk. And being confronted I didnt know what to do so I just said "okay don't be with me then" and so he dropped me off to my moms down the street that night and we took a little break.
我们关系的侧面故事
(我猜这是我的发泄)
请注意. .我们的关系断断续续已经有3年了，虽然今年比我们在一起的其他所有年份都要好，但显然仍有一些事情需要我们共同努力……这3年总是在他身上，因为他曾经把我当垃圾一样对待，因为他和前妻分手了，他和前妻有一个孩子，现在几乎不经常见面。当我遇到他并和他在一起时，我不得不处理所有的伤害和随之而来的坏消息。我经历了地狱般的磨难，又回到了他身边，但出于某种原因，我们永远不能让对方离开。他知道他是如何对待我的，但直到我们分手后才意识到这一点。那时，他爱我只是因为我爱他。因为我一直在身边，把这一切都解决了。
我们上次分手是去年，大概和现在是同一时间，他把我逼到了极限，让我无法理解我对很多情况的感受，所以我们决定分手，这次我真的很伤心。我当时一团糟，随着时间的流逝，我慢慢地忘记了他。当然，一切如常，他意识到我为他所做的一切，以及我想从这段关系中得到的所有好处，比如花更多的优质时间，只是一起做一些事情和其他事情。他极度抑郁，精神失常，吃得不好，精神错乱。他抽大麻，随便喝酒(他从来没有这样做过)，但因为他认为他终于失去了我。他甚至向我求婚。我没有上当，但他几个月来一直试图和我说话，求我回来。说实话，当时我的心不在他身边。我已经从分手中慢慢恢复过来，想要忘记他。但几周或一个月之后，一切都过去了。 I gave in. We promised to make this relationship better and really make it work this time. And so we did. In December when we got back together and it was NYE after the countdown, he asked me to be his girlfriend again. There was still some things that happened shortly after we got back together, but we didn't give up. And I knew he really loved me this time...
不管怎样，回到我的醉酒事件
所以当我第二次酗酒成为一个问题时，我对我所做的事情感到很难过，我想尽我最大的努力来解决它，尽管他仍然对这种情况感到非常沮丧，但他给了我一个改正的机会。我告诉他，“也许我确实有酗酒问题。这次我真的不干了，就这样吧。我想要变得更好，从中吸取教训。”所以我们参加的每一个活动，我都拒绝大家。我不喝酒，我戒了。等等。
*我发泄的第二个故事*
(我保证这一切都与我的事件有关，你只需要一个背景故事，哈哈)
现在可能…7 . .现在我们又回到了原来的模式。他不努力，我也被误解了。再也没有彼此相处的好时光了。他经历了很多事情，我一直在努力让它变得更好。他从2月份开始就失业了，他一直不想找工作，因为他现在正在与鼠疫牛皮癣作斗争，这种病已经占领了他的头皮、皮肤、指甲等所有部位。他为此沮丧了好几个月，整天坐在家里玩电子游戏。他对此没有安全感，如果他试图回去找工作、接受面试之类的事情，他会感到尴尬。我很同情他。 I understood. I took care of him. I was also unemployed at the time and months before that, actually when we broke up in October last year, I lost my job due to being laid off from the pandemic. I searched around for jobs for months and finally landed a good job at the end of April (just in time for his birthday), for great pay and just about 5-10 mins from me. I was happy, I even started going to the gym and really worked on myself. I even bought him a whole pc setup. The desk, the chair and some new headphones. He had the pc already (which I won for him in a raffle) and monitors he has already. It was great. He loved it. Anyways those few months was great. Everything was going good until our relationship kind of slipped up. I was starting to do everything by myself again. All he would pay attention to was the video games and I was sick of it. Come to find out he was playing with some girl on one of these games. Almost every day that I had no aware of. I confronted him about it and he said "ok fine. Im not gonna argue with you about. If you dont like it then ok". Which means what? I was assuming he wasnt going to play or make conversation with her but he still did continuously. Knowing that I know and how I felt about it along with how i felt about our relationship slowly going sideways again. And so because I felt he didn't care and wasn't taking my feelings into consideration. I slowly started to drink again. I broke my promise. I know. To myself. And him. But I was angry. And so stressed out with our relationship. If he was doing whatever. I was going to do it too. Also during this time I had lost my job again due to my company not having much work to do for me. So now I am behind on bills, and in debt and so much more... anyways,
第三次，我们要参加他朋友的另一个孩子的生日。我决定去喝一杯。我想说这是九月初的某个时候。这次我喝的是龙舌兰酒，虽然我喝得有点多，但我还是控制住了自己的酒量。晚上快结束的时候有点模糊，但我意识到，比平时持续的时间更长，哈哈，我甚至可以告诉我的男朋友我准备回家了。在我呕吐之前或之后…但是是的。第二天早上，他表现出心烦意乱的迹象，但这对我来说是无所谓的。我不是在发疯，也不是在丢人。我觉得我处理得很好。
大概几周后，在我向他提出一些事情之后，我们发生了争吵，他提到了我是如何违背诺言的。但我那样做只是因为他没有考虑到我的感受!他慢慢地不再在乎这段感情了。我只是想放松一下!在那次讨论之后，就这样了。
上次喝酒之后，我只在家里和他的家人或自己随便喝了。也许哪天晚上喝杯真酒或者烧酒，龙舌兰酒。但我什么都没做。有天晚上我确实在浴室睡着了，所以我想他对此不太高兴。
现在啊。我最后一次出现是在上周末的周六。(我试图呼吸，当我发泄这一点…)这是他母亲的文化祝福仪式。我们是亚洲人，所以我们有僧侣来家里祝福他父母的婚姻。我不确定我是否想喝，因为前一天我和我妈妈还有她的朋友们喝了一点，但我提前回家了，这样我就可以在仪式上早点醒来。我的胃有点不舒服，所以我真的不想吃。但是我男朋友的妹妹…邀请他的妈妈来家里。她是在僧侣们离开后才来的，仪式差不多已经结束了。但我得假装不介意她在那里。 Now Im not bitter, and I don't care for her. But I did feel some type of way about her being there for something that should only be friends and family. Unless it didn't have anything to do with his daughter (which she could have just dropped off if my boyfriend wanted her there), I felt she didn't need to be there. Once again I felt I wasnt taken into consideration. And even though he wasn't the one to invite her and I really don't have a say in who should be invited because that is his family, why wasn't I slightly even considered about? Anyways, she left after staying for a couple hours. And we started drinking. Everything was fine and dandy. I checked on him like I usually do since he doesn't really hang around with me.. I was fine one minute, the next.. everything terrible has gone wrong. I completely blacked out. I guess his babymother had came back that night to hang out. Mind you this is all just friends and family. I was now bothered by it because why is she even here lol. And because of all the stress that I have been bottling in for so long, with our relationship, and things I have been dealing with on my own in my life, and how I felt about her being there.. I went absolutely crazy. I didnt know anything of what I did or what I woke up from my blackout. Heres what happened..
我想这一切都始于我看到或者发现他的妈妈回来玩了。有人告诉我，我哭了，被她绊倒了，把她在那里当成了一件大事，即使他们什么都没做，也没有真正联系。我喝醉了，很有攻击性。我故意打翻了桌子上的饮料，所以一些十几岁的孩子，他侄女的孩子，他们把我带到楼上，据我所知，那时我从昏迷中微微醒来。我被换掉了裙子，穿上了运动裤和背心，所以我不记得换过，但他们不让我离开房间。他们不让我下楼，因为我猜我喝得太醉了，他们只是想让我呆在自己的房间里，这样我就不会惹麻烦了。(哦，是的，我忘了说我们和他的家人住在一起)但不管怎么说，我还是很难过，我猜他的婴儿妈妈在那里，更难过的是他们不让我下楼。(他的外甥女大约13-14岁)我想我打了其中一个试图离开的人，我对他们说了一些不礼貌的话，我告诉他们如果他们不让我走，我就从窗户跳下去。我猜他们中的一个人用我的手机打电话给我妈妈让她来接我，他们又打电话给他妹妹，因为我表现得很疯狂。简直是疯了。 And so I guess I finally was able to go downstairs and (oh I also forgot to mention that he was also drinking. And he doesnt drink, so he was also very drunk at the time), I guess I got into his face, and he pushed me and I fell and tripped over something. Mind you this is all in front of everyone and his friends. I guess I tried to take my karaoke machine that they were using but failed to. Now I don't remember how I got outside but I was outside barefoot and I was so angry that I climbed on top of his car, in the rain, trying to smash his windshield with my hand and my arm as hard as I could saying, "Why why why." Thats when I ran into his sister and her friend, which is the mother of one of the girls that was also upstairs. My mom got there when all this happened outside and his sister dragged me to her to get into the car. I was sobbing and still screaming about whatever I was feeling. I finally got home to my moms house and I was sitting there balling my eyes out questioning myself. Repeating out to her saying that I loved him, why doesnt anybody care, why doesnt he love me, why am I always the bad person. All this stuff.
第二天早上…我觉得自己就是个彻头彻尾的垃圾。我当时宿醉未醒，手和胳膊都擦伤了，我只记得一点点发生了什么。我不知道我做了什么，直到周一我决定从他妹妹那里弄清楚。她告诉我之后，我的心一沉。
我怎么了?严重! !这可能是我有过的最糟糕的昏迷经历中最糟糕的一次了。我从没想过我会像现在这样。对孩子们那样做，对他们说不合适的话，试图从窗户出去，下楼再一次让自己出丑。我想我还朝别人扔了鱼露。喜欢啊。我对自己感到非常厌恶。我睡不着，也吃不下。如果我真的睡着了，我的睡眠时间表也会被打乱，所以我基本上晚上起床，白天睡觉。 I been depressed ever since this happened and once again I have made made a fool out of myself because of not being able to control my drinking. Fine one min, doing something crazy while blacked out the next. And I just wanna say I was never like this beforehand, last year and so on. I used to be able to drink and be able to hang but no matter how many times I have tried to limit myself and tell myself to just have a good time dont push it, it never works out. Along with so much happening in my life already- losing my job once again, being so behind on my bills, and in debt, my credit score going down, not to mention that now that my boyfriend and I have broken up because of this, I am back at my moms but It don't feel the same. It doesn't feel like home. She made my room into a stroage room/her closet, and moved the furniture around. All of my things are still currently at his house along with my cats that I cant bring to my moms because she had just gotten rid of the fleas that my cats had when I brought them over to visit, and I don't know if they're fully gone to bring them back over. Not to mention that my mom has been using my car since February because shes been without a car since and I let her use mine while I was using my boyfriends because he didnt need it for work or anything so I was using his car when I was working at the time. But now she wants to fully take over my car in no regards that the car is mine? Like.. Im obviously going to need my car back for a job I been trying to get. I am just going crazy and don't know what to do with myself. I won't forgive myself this time and Im sure my boyfriend won't either. We actually havent spoken at all since the occurrence, until I decided to send him a long voice memo yesterday (tuesday) apologizing and some other stuff. All he replied was "You’re not allowed here anymore. I’ll drop off your stuff when I have time." My heart hurts. His family probably hates me. I never thought I would become aggressive like I did and let something like that bother me. I don't want to blame the alcohol but you how could I have known what I was doing. When your so drunk like that and have your emotions take control of you, how can you stop somebody. And what Im even more hurt about is the fact that they just had some kids to bring me upstairs instead of my boyfriend himself or a family member. I wish somebody could have just pulled me aside to calm me down and talk to me instead of making feel and look even crazier. I just don't know what to do and honestly.. what I did is hurting me more than the breakup. I have never regretted anything more than this. Its absolutely killing me. I love my boyfriend more than ever, I can't picture being with anyone else, I would do anything and take a bullet for him. And as much as our relationship has been toxic, I go crazy not being able to be with him right now. But this is really all on me now. This is my fault. But in my heart I wish it would have been different if someone just cared enough. I will seem like the villain and the bad guy for now because of what I have done. But I was misunderstood... no one cared... No one will see how I felt or what I was going through to begin with....
谢谢你的阅读，如果你读了的话。我知道很多。我需要发泄，因为我真的没有倾诉的对象。没有朋友，没有可以依靠的肩膀……但我会因为这种情况不断地打击自己，我永远不会感觉好起来。现在没有我的男朋友在我的怀里，没有我生活中发生的一切。我不知道怎样才能感觉好。我不知道自己该怎么办……
我一直觉得也许结束自己的生命会更容易些。

最近几年我很少喝得酩酊大醉，疫情期间我控制住了自己的饮酒量，我以为我和酒精的关系越来越好了，事实也确实如此，但有时我就是控制不住自己喝多少酒，也不知道要不要继续喝。我最近在生日派对上喝得酩酊大醉，真希望能有一台时光机来重新来过。我对我的姐姐说了很难听的话，她只是想帮助我，我告诉我的朋友们不要烦我，我真的不记得也不知道为什么我表现得这么糟糕。有一个人(我喜欢他，但没有人知道)，我真的很努力，我们亲热了两次(我的朋友不得不告诉我，因为我显然不记得了)，我感到很尴尬，因为每个人都看到了，我不想让每个人知道我的事情，至少他们说这是相互的，但我仍然非常尴尬。而且我和其他客人相处的时间太少了，我认为这是我的错误。他们告诉我他们仍然玩得很开心，但我仍然有很多遗憾，我在寻找原谅自己的方法，我想这是一种方式，只是讲述我的故事。

我恨我自己。我总是喝得太多。我所有的朋友和家人都知道我是一个酒量不好的人。我需要戒酒，但这太难了，因为我周围的每个人都能喝酒而不滥用它。我似乎是唯一一个在挣扎的人，我感到很孤独。我做过太多让我难以释怀的事，每次默哀的时候，它们都会在我脑海中浮现。有一段时间，我以为我已经不再喝酒了，因为我经历了所有的糟糕经历，宿醉的想法要了我的命。但几天前，我又去了一个派对，喝得烂醉。夜晚的结束是模糊的。我做了很多让我后悔的事，但这些事让我印象深刻。 I first said I said something really messed up to my friend's crush. I said I was sorry but I honestly am so dumb for that and I feel horrible. Then I went up front waiting for my ride and literally was on the floor, people were picking me up. I went to the neighbor's house and have no idea what I was doing there but I didn't go inside luckily. I don't even know how I got to the place where I slept. I just don't know what happened in some parts and that drives me crazy. I don't know what I did or said. I also don't know what happened to my body. It's been a few days but I am going insane just playing this night in my head. I overanalyze every single situation in my life already, but the fact that I don't know what happened is making me livid. I'm trying to forgive myself for this and all those other times but honestly, all these embarrassing drunken moments make me want to end it.

在过去的几年里我一直在酗酒....甚至更多!两天前，我在大约2小时内喝了半瓶杜松子酒和一瓶葡萄酒，最后住进了医院!我摔倒了，昏了过去，我自己设法叫了救护车，然后拒绝和他们一起去。当他们把我送到医院时，我自己出院了，头部的伤没有缝合。我感到很尴尬，这一切都是在我的两个小家伙睡觉的时候完成的。我现在为自己感到羞愧:-(

我没有酗酒问题，但我有感情问题。我今年37岁，几乎一生都有过约会的经历，而且在第一天晚上就完全醉了。距离我的上一段恋情已经过去一年了，那是我最长的一段恋情之一，持续了一年半。是的，第一晚我喝了很多酒，而他仍然很清醒，这让我很尴尬。然而，他坚持在我身边，甚至第二天给我端汤来。但那天晚上我遇到了一个人，就像我提到的，我在约会网站上认识了一个人，他比我小十岁，我觉得他很不成熟。他来我家，他还没到，我就已经喝了半瓶(中号)伏特加。接下来我就醉了，我们发生了性关系，这可能是他经历过的最糟糕的性关系，因为我变得超级没有安全感，我说了很多废话，我的问题和我的过去，通常还会说教很多。不管怎样，他完成了他的生意(经过一段时间，由于我目前的状态，我不会从中得到任何东西)，甚至没有说再见就立即离开了。第二天我不仅觉得自己像个废物，而且觉得自己像个失败者，丑陋，可悲，你能想到的都有。我只是想要陪伴，但我不知道为什么我觉得我必须喝酒才能舒服地与男人建立联系。

所以我每隔一段时间就会有这个问题，当我过量饮酒时(尤其是涉及大麻的时候)，我注意到自从大流行以来，我的情况变得更糟了。我往往会因为男朋友不花时间陪我或不想出去喝酒而生气。他是个电脑玩家，我通常不会因为他玩电脑而生气，但有时当我喝醉时，一切都变得很糟糕。我猜这是因为我不愿意一个人喝酒，但同时我也希望我的脑海里有一个理性的声音告诉我要冷静下来。我们不需要总是一起喝酒，他也不需要总是什么都告诉我等等。但当我喝醉的时候，我开始想他没有做的事情，而不是我希望他在做的事情。在某种程度上，这是一种非常自私的心态，就好像我忘记了他为我做的所有好事一样。当我这样的时候，我很害怕，因为这几乎就像玩轮盘赌一样，永远不知道那天晚上我会醉成什么样。我要么是开心的醉了，要么是疯狂的女友醉了。例如，昨晚我不小心玩了断路器，关掉了他的电脑(我实际上不知道第一个开关会这样做，但我也不知道我为什么会想到它?) It’s as if the personality of a crazy girlfriend took over me . I don’t know what came over me but I’m still in disbelief as to why I did that. me and my bf made up and I told him I’ll work on it but im afraid of it happening again. I just wish I was always that chill drunk but like I said it’s like a game of roulette and I can’t predict my drunk emotions. I really hope the next time I can control my emotions better. Because I like to drink and I don’t want to have to stop because I can’t control my emotional behavior. I’m sure it has something to do with my overall health, the potency of the alcohol and how crossfaded I get but I hate replaying my embarrassing moments in my head and wishing I can go back in time and never do them. I just want to move on and forgive myself. But It’s so hard especially when I keep repeating them. As a tomboy growing up, I really don’t want to turn into a nightmare girlfriend lol

嗨。我正在为周五做的一件非常尴尬的事而挣扎。我正在办理离婚手续。上周，我和一个非常帅的男人进行了一次很棒的约会，我们之间产生了很好的化学反应。不幸的是，在经历了特别艰难的一周之后，周五我和我的姐妹们喝得酩酊大醉，显然我给这个家伙发了短信或打了电话。我只记得他给我发短信说我吓到他了。我把手机里的所有东西都删了，当时我还醉得不知道自己做了什么，说了什么。第二天早上我道了歉，但我知道我再也见不到他了。我真是个白痴，觉得自己很蠢，很羞愧，很生自己的气，因为我毁了一件本可以很有趣的事情。需要一些帮助来原谅自己。

我非常感谢这里所有的帖子，它帮助了我很多。所以我想分享我的故事。我已经酗酒两年了。我最近和另外两个人搬进了一套新公寓。他们真的很好，我感到很受欢迎。就在我搬进来的第四天，我们去参加了一个派对。我喝得太醉了……我什么都不记得了。但是，事实证明，我把我的毒瘾告诉了我的新室友。我们进行了一次非常坦诚但也令人尴尬的谈话。 They now know about my addiction. I still don't know what went down that evening. I'm afraid of all the embarrasing things I did or if I might sexually harassed someone. I begged my romemates not to tell me anything, it would have ruined me. Even though I don't know what happened, I'm feeling so guilty and bad. I ruined my whole life because of alcoholism. Please don't do what I did. Please get help
顺便说一下，英语不是我的第一语言，所以请原谅我

我真的有一个尴尬的醉酒的夜晚,这是一个官方党与许多建筑师、规划师,等等,我是一个新鲜的21岁女性和许多人一样,这是我第一次正式聚会,我做了一个很大的错误,因为我喝了很多的饮料是免费的,直到我完全空白,在我的记忆中我看到一些自己在男厕所问一些官员来帮助我的衣服,我穿了一件连身衣那一天,我问一个人打电话给我的朋友带我回家,我觉得很热，我想看色情片自慰，我不记得我是否在公共场合自慰，如果我有，它每天都困扰着我。我在和我实习过的公司的一位官员聊天，聊天的时候我放屁，那声音太大了。还有一幅图片是我脱下我的内衣，当它弄湿了，我拿着它和别人谈论它，我睡在地板上，有人帮助我。我跑去拿纸巾，吐了很多。
那天我因为酒精毁了自己，我无法忘记这已经一年多了，有时我想结束我的生命，这是我的错，是我自己，我为自己感到羞愧，我是个彻头彻尾的白痴。

我一直在努力原谅自己几个月前的醉酒行为。我和我的男朋友和我喝一个晚上宵禁,但搞砸了,让它回家,所以他带我进他的家去见他的妈妈,看看我可以过夜,介意你他从未让任何人去见他的妈妈除了我,让我感觉更糟,但无论如何我要昏倒了,当我见到她,我不穿内衣(个人选择)显然脱了裤子,让她纹身在我的大腿上。她和他的阿姨一起看到了我的私人区域，我不记得那样做了，我仍然留下来过夜，但那天晚上我让我自己和我的男朋友很尴尬。第二天，我在清醒的状态下和她谈了话，向她道歉，她很感激，我们也没事了。几周后，我和他又喝酒了，我们决定在他家过夜，我记得我们把车停在他家门口，我们在外面停了一会儿，我想进去睡觉，但我男朋友仍然想喝他的饮料，这是我最后的记忆。第二天早上，我在他的房子里醒来，身上没穿裤子，披着一条毯子。现在，他的床在客厅里，大家都去的地方。我在外面的卡车上找到了我的裤子，我穿上裤子又走了进去。不过这次他妈妈也在里面，她告诉我，他爸爸和他阿姨、哥哥那天早上去上班的时候看到我半裸着，记得我没穿内衣，所以他们看到了一切!我感到非常羞愧。 I talked to her again later that day and she was furious, she forgave me but it wasn’t the same. Let’s just say one more thing happened to where as I was sober but still got the blame. My boyfriend laid his hands on me one night while he was blacked out at her house, she was telling me that it wasn’t who he is, this and that (although she tells me the drunk stuff I did to her is who I am and I don’t blame her but it’s not true, I never liked alcohol 6 months ago and I never meant to harm anyone, I always apologized.) and she called the cops on him, they couldn’t find him so they left (he was under the bed that whole time lmao) but anyways I didn’t wanna be there when he woke up so I called my cousin to pick me up, I told her what happened and told her not to tell anyone. She told her boyfriend and he got mad mine laid my hands on me so he went up and hit my boyfriends moms car! I told him to get in wtf was he doin that wasn’t my boyfriends car.. even made him go back and apologize but she was mad. She thought we were trying to bash out her car windows but he didn’t and I had no idea he was gonna do that. I am no longer allowed near her house and I know her dislike for me is strong. I’m a good person, his family thinks that I’m just a drunk and always blames me for my boyfriends drunk behavior also but that’s not the case. I got a job again, quit drinking but it don’t do any good with them, they don’t care. Just sucks it had to be like that. Sucks I had to drink. Anyways drinking led to those embarrassing and shameful events, I regret it a lot. I wish they knew that wasn’t who I am. I wish I never done those things. I still feel so shitty.

需要一些帮助，有人让我平静下来…周末我和朋友适度饮酒，很少有问题。我不认为自己是个酗酒的人，有时我几个月不喝酒，有时我连续3天喝酒。这是非常不稳定的，取决于场合(婚礼，城里的朋友等)偶尔(大约一年一次)，我在我家乡的市中心的时候会变黑。我住在一个小镇上，所以我说的话和做的事都会让我后悔，因为每个人都认识我和我的家人。不管怎样，最近我在市中心喝得很醉，只记得一些瞬间。我记得有一次和一位年长的女士的谈话，她是我们家的朋友，我不太了解。我记得我喝醉了，一遍又一遍地问同样的问题，直到她让我离她远点，她说我是个白痴。我不记得我说了什么/做了什么让她这么难过，但我知道她没那么醉，这让情况更糟。我真的希望我没有对她做任何不合适的事情，因为那根本不像我。 But I cant remember fully. My girlfriend was in the same bar, but across the way so I feel like if it was something inappropriate it would have caused a scene and my girlfriend would have been mad at me. After I got yelled at I went up to another couple and was in this girls face and she kept backing up and I kept trying to talk to her and she told me to back away. The music was super loud and I was just trying to talk but I think she thought I was the weirdest guy in the planet as my face inched closer as she kept backing away. Turns out we have mutual friends and this was the first time they met me...great. I can't function for some time when this happens. It replays in my head for days and weeks after. I am banking on the fact that they know deep down I don't typically act like that and that I am a good person, but I just don't know. I can't get over it and I'm afraid to bring it up to anyone just incase they end up revealing more bad things I did and then I have to start all over with the shame and guilt. Thanks in advance...

呃，我只是想在这里分享一下，因为我喝醉后所做的一切让我感到羞愧和恶心。我刚刚有了一个新的开始，搬了家，找了一份新工作，一切都很顺利，直到我开始在工作中被欺负。我试着保持低调，什么都不说，但情况太糟了，我被请病假了。我当时很混乱，因为我真的以为我有一份终身工作，是在当地议会工作，但事情并没有进展。他们让我做了一个Facebook来和他们保持联系。我删除了信使，因为它只是恒定的，我无法逃脱。那天晚上，那个团伙头目想加我为好友，我没理他，然后她的家人又想加我为好友。我真的很兴奋，因为我只是想一个人呆着，最后我喝了杯酒，只是啤酒，但我崩溃了，我开始发关于那个欺负人的醉汉的帖子，说我女儿的爸爸死了，希望人们不要再问她是否有爸爸，其他的东西说我生病了，想一个人呆着，我只是不好意思看着我说的话。当我早上醒来时，我感到非常尴尬，我觉得我是被推着走的，我上当了，现在我完全成了一个傻瓜，看起来像个十足的疯子。我从没想过要开户。 I quickly deleted the account, wrapped up my work stuff, posted it with my notice saying my health couldn't take it. I suffer from depression and anxiety, so can get really triggered and alcohol makes it so much worse I don't know why I drink. I basically ran away I was so embarrassed. I can't believe I let it get to me and now I look like a total fool because of my drinking. I'm 36 and I'm. So embarrassed what I am going to tell people why I left my job. My so called friend must've seen the posts (I didn't put many people due to management on there) he was so abrupt the next day and cancelled to see me. Most friends were supportive and said to just leave. But because of the job, alot of so called friends said I was being sensitive and to stick it out. Well I tried that and then made an ass of myself. Just wish I could run away

那天晚上是我朋友的生日派对，他们开了一辆派对巴士，开往不同的酒吧，非常有趣!我很开心，我的男朋友也很开心，但是…我喝了酒，喝了很多酒，所以我基本上就昏过去了。我们到了他们家，大概在那里呆了10分钟，我开始大哭起来，不知道是什么原因。当我喝醉的时候，这种情况经常发生，真的很尴尬。我只记得和朋友出去透透气，就这样。我男朋友说他认为只有几个人看到了我，但我不知道这是否完全正确，我想他是想照顾我的感受。但我对此感到非常尴尬，我觉得我可能毁了今晚。最重要的是他妈妈看到我也在哭....我讨厌这种感觉，我再也不想喝酒了!

你好,
我在为醉酒的愚蠢之夜而挣扎。
我是一个10个月大的孩子的新妈妈，我和我孩子的父亲处于一种非常有毒的自恋关系中，大多数时候我觉得我对分手处理得很好，但有些日子我可以看到我仍然没有让自己愈合和处理。(我在怀孕7个月的时候离开了他)不管怎样，我刚开始和一个朋友出去玩，我有一段时间没有和她出去玩了，因为我的前任因为很多原因不喜欢她，她超级放荡，有点野，但她很诚实和开放。不管怎样，我说要再和她出去玩，我们出去玩的5次中有4次都喝了酒。那四次中有两次我喝得太醉了，昏过去了，晚上大部分时间都忘了，第一晚还不算太糟，那天晚上我只是对她的一个朋友有点粗鲁。但是正好是星期一的晚上,和我太太太醉了,我又一次粗鲁地对待她的一个朋友,长话短说,他打我,我不是我认为可能不是最好的,但就像我说我涂黑的晚上我不记得全部细节,但最大的可能是除了我那么讨厌的一整夜,那么多讽刺,和奇怪的蹩脚的笑话,我性感的朋友也触及人她看。我不知道我是怎么勾搭上他的，但我肯定这让我很不安。当我意识到我他妈做了什么，我把我的朋友叫到我的房间，关上门，告诉她嘿，我勾引了你的男人。我很抱歉。她装作若无其事的样子。但事实并非如此，他们在那之后不久就离开了，现在我的朋友已经好几天没和我说话了。 I first off was a wild drunk, second off hit on the dude she is all about , and was so excited for me to meet and I made a complete ass of myself. I feel so ashamed because first off I hate making mistakes like this because I am a mother, I hate that I allowed myself to get like this yet again like I’m 19 again. I have been over thinking the whole night for the last few days I just feel like an awful shitty person. I really just don’t know my alcohol limit after having a child less than a year ago and my friends limit is sooo high I can’t keep up and when I try I do the most stupidest shit. All I keep thinking about is what I kinda shit I said that I don’t remember , and wow what is she thinking about and what the other 2 people we’re thinking. I am my hardest critic I just feel like an over all awful person, and just trashy as all hell. I know in sometime it won’t hit me like it is now, but I just don’t know how to cope properly with it all. I do know that like I stated I don’t know my limit and that is a huge sign for me to really take a break, like I said it’s only been 2 times that I got like this for years but , wow do I ever just feel like an awful horrible person.

嘿，昨晚是我兄弟21号，我喝得很醉，但我玩得很开心。我是异性恋，但我和一个女孩跳舞，她吻了我，告诉我她不是，但吻后我说对不起，我是异性恋。在那之后，当我和其他人跳舞时，她对我很生气，然后离开了。我没有想太多，但我刚醒来，我哥哥就告诉我我们是如何在所有人面前接吻的，比如朋友和家人，尤其是阿姨和表兄妹。我真的希望他们不要以此来评判我，我感到很羞愧。在我哥哥告诉我所有人都看到之前我都没觉得有那么糟。我希望我没有误导那个女孩。我不知道该怎么办。

我刚和男朋友分手，因为他打了我，把我的眼睛打青了我很沮丧，和我的朋友出去喝了酒，最后去了一个朋友家，他们说我太大声了，最后在有门禁的地方徘徊，有人叫保安，以为我是小偷。我在他的沙发上尿尿，因为我不能走路。我现在感觉像死了一样，因为房子里有人。我患有抑郁症很长一段时间，酗酒做了很多坏事，是时候戒烟了，甚至在这个过程中丢了我的手机。我不知道我该如何克服这些。压力太大了。我想重新开始，但我做过的事情折磨着我。我甚至无法入睡。我希望他们没有拍视频。我决定远离酒精来修复我的生活。我只是担心他们永远不会原谅我

你好玛丽,
我才意识到我只是评论了你的回复，并没有发送回复。我的帖子是5月29日发布的，如果可以删除那就太好了。非常感谢你创造了一个平台，让每个人都可以表达自己，并感到被认可。
谢谢你！
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你好,
我想删除我在这里发表的评论。我想彻底忘记这种情况
谢谢

我甚至不知道从哪里开始…从2014年起，我开始喝断片酒，情况非常糟糕，我醒来时对之前发生的事情感到害怕和困惑，这给我与伴侣和朋友的关系带来了问题。我觉得我的朋友们不会那么难受，因为他们知道我是什么样的人，但对于陌生人看着我，这肯定就像这个女孩到底怎么了(在我看来)，这很奇怪，因为我会完全没事的，酒精就会莫名其妙地打我，我曾经认为这是香烟和酒精的结合，但有时我甚至不吸烟，所以我不知道这是什么……我大约3年前戒了酒，我只在生日的时候喝酒，或者在庆祝的时候喝1-2杯，但我严重地避免了酒精，开始关注自己，因为断片真的对我的精神健康造成了损害，而且发现你断片时做的事情非常尴尬。有人告诉我，我好像被另一个人附身了，因为我的行为不像我自己，我开始摇晃，到处摔倒。我说的话毫无意义。前几天我和我的伴侣出去参加乔房聚会，我随意地喝酒来热身(因为我不认识这些人，我有社交焦虑)，我喝着冷却器，因为我不想喝得酩酊大醉，在我去那里之前我也吃了一大堆食物……枪声开始响起，我一直说不，最后向他们屈服了……但让他们倒很小的酒……我最后昏过去了，发现我可能摔倒在地上6-7次，可能出丑了，我真的很尴尬，因为这些都是我男朋友的亲密朋友，所以他们对我的看法肯定对我很重要……我不知道现在该怎么办，我不好意思见到他们/和他们说话....我很难过，我让我男朋友陷入了那种境地……当我们在一起的时候，我告诉过他，我是个很糟糕的酒鬼，这就是为什么我不喝酒的原因，但我认为当我告诉他时，他并没有把这当回事……我对这整件事感觉糟透了…他说他没疯，但我敢肯定他疯了，因为我刚才在他那些刚认识我的朋友面前出丑了。

我感到很尴尬。我需要把这个说出来。昨晚我出去庆祝，晚餐吃了一大杯玛格酒。当我们离开时，我完全没事，有人开车带我们去第二个地点时，我开始感觉到它。我朋友在第二家店点了一杯酒，我也喝了一些。然后突然我就不舒服了。我不记得付钱、上车、开车回家，或者回到我的公寓。我很讨厌那样。然后最糟糕的事情发生了。我尿床了。 thankfully i live alone and not a soul knows this about me. i plan on taking it to the grave. i’m so embarrassed and no one even knows but i’m my worst critic. last night has me thinking of giving up alcohol. i don’t drink often and i’ve only ever been drunk maybe six times bc i have a fear of losing control (hence why i’m so SO ashamed of this incident). i haven’t cried about it but i feel like i need to. blacking out from drinking is the scariest thing for me and i don’t know what to do.