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最近,我一个人来尊重和关心自杀未遂。我很感激他还在这里告诉这个故事。他的遗书是在线和他的痛苦是如此明显就撕断了我的灵魂。我非常高兴听到他的朋友救了他及时救他。但我当时剩下的问题对这个人说什么。世界上我想要做的最后一件事是使情况更困难。你会怎么做当你关心的只是试图自杀的人吗?
周五我去药店买些药物。这是一个漫长的等待,我不舒服。我周围我听到人们说话,手机响了,各种声音的杂货店,药店。声音似乎来自一个距离,周围的人和事,我感到深深地断开我,好像我是一个观察者在一个梦想,不是我的。它不是一个特别舒适的当然不是一个不寻常的经历。我有多重人格障碍,我住与慢性严重分离几乎所有我的生活。这段插曲我描述说明了人格解体和现实感丧失的力量相结合,两种形式的离解,经常在一起出现。尽管我已经做了我的离解经验,作为一个整体,是绝对不正常,离解本身是几乎每个人都经历的时候。
我只能代表我自己和我的经验让我的前夫。你的结果可能有所不同,但我希望我的经验给你一个头来,知道这并不容易在任何时候,勇气继续你的课程。我的前女友没有茎,没有求我回家,没有打开魅力哄骗我返回。他觉得我背叛了他。他用我的决定报告他法律和军队作为一个不可原谅的罪。我接触他(错误地)说。我认为他觉得他离开我。
今天我的医生对我说,“你知道,你应该很高兴。你应该恢复。”I sometimes question if I do deserve to recover. I'm not proud of some of the things I have done in life. I have not always been the kindest person. I have sometimes ignored people who needed me. I have put my husband and loved ones through years of anguish and fear as I slipped further and further into anorexia nervosa and failed at recovery many times. I have made them cry as they thought that I could possibly die from my eating disorder. I blocked myself off from their fears and pleas, and continued to pursue thinness ruthlessly for years like a person possessed. All of these things make me question my worth and if I deserve to recovery. But there's something more. My doctor, a wonderfully perceptive man even when I sometimes sit silently and dive back into the safety of my thoughts, said I have this space within my brain that allows the eating disorder to tell me that I do not deserve to be happy, healthy, and free. This is so true, and I sometimes want to scream at the voices to stop and leave me alone.
我喜欢我的工作。我要写的这是许多作家不要去做。此外,我开始写关于我的事情。也为许多作家一个伟大的奢侈品。这些快乐是绝大多数人得到满足。我有伟大的不满,不过,看到激烈的对那些有心理疾病。讨厌的人出现在这里,在我的博客上和其他地方。患有双相情感障碍的仇恨似乎寻求地方来表达他们的仇恨。但精神疾病的仇恨只是另一个偏见。仇恨的双相情感障碍患者是一样的种族主义和不可接受的。
“抓住希望,继续前进。”Those are the closing words I remember from the last speaker this morning at the NAMI National Convention's education session. All of us in the standing-room-only ballroom were there to honor the various education and support programs that NAMI offers. Consumers, providers, family members and NAMI staffers were invited to offer their stories, and tell how programs like Family-to-Family, NAMI Basics (for families with younger children), In Our Own Voice, Peer-to-Peer and more affected our journeys. Wow. How we all need education. How we all need each other.
庆祝活动和节假日在清醒不是时候,我期待着早期的清醒。但这7月4日,风轻,太阳很温暖,公司充满了笑声,对话,和快乐。能够庆祝一个节日清醒让我充满了感激之情。度假在清醒中,我感觉很好是值得庆祝的事情。
辱骂是用来减少受害者的权利。它是用来麻痹思想和致残的心脏,让受害者感到那么小,一文不值,他们变得依赖只有施虐者。只有施虐者的意见很重要,因为他/她是受害者的幸福和痛苦的关键。令人愉悦的施虐者(避免痛苦)才是首要任务。但滥用并不发生在真空中。受害人必须觉得他们做更多比避免痛苦留在和虐待关系的意义。受害人必须感到一个更高的目标是在工作中合理化他或她参与的关系,使他们恐惧和悲伤。
谢谢你伸出很难谈什么你感到如此脆弱,所以我感谢你愿意分享。我很抱歉听到你在痛苦,但我想鼓励你去寻找资源,可以帮助。我们的心理健康咨询服务和热线号码页面是一个很好的起点。这些资源是安全、保密和总是可用的。这是页面链接://www.5wetown.com/other-info/resources/mental-health-hotline-numbers-and-referral-resources。我知道通常是很困难的,但请继续接触。
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