离开一段虐待关系

有人能和我谈谈吗?我17岁，患有BPD，处于虐待关系中。我感到被困住了，我不能让自己离开。这段感情让我精疲力竭。

我有创伤后应激障碍，也可能有bpd。我和前男友经历了4年的虐待关系。他袭击了我，还推了我几次，掐住我的脖子，使劲拉我的头发，我的脖子和头疼了好几个小时。因为我的心理健康问题，我责怪自己。但显然他有反社会人格障碍，他会告诉我他爱我，他需要我改变他的生活。当他要离开的时候，我表现得非常绝望地想让他回来，而且有自杀倾向。我也开始厌倦他对待我的方式，以至于我要爆发了。他威胁说要抛弃我，所以我也开始对他这么做，因为这是他表达爱意的唯一方式。我小时候被虐待过，十几岁的时候，我的眼睛大部分都在性、言语和情感上。我想他也是，所以我原谅了他，但我总是担心他会找我麻烦。我几个月前离开了他。 Yet I miss him because he was all I had because my family is not there for me. I was always the scapegoat of my family and I think I'm taking it into other relationships. I felt so empty after I broke up with the ex and then he kinda left me too so I felt so sad because I was doing so well before we were actually together I had recovered from my ptsd and most of my bpd symptoms as well that now because I have no support from my scapegoating family I found anew boyfriend that I think may also be abusive. He's been asking if he could move in with me and he's locked up but I thought maybe he wasn't that bad because he told me he wants to turn his life around and wants to marry and have kids. But I think its fake. Because he asked if he can move in with me and we just started dating 2 days ago. And he will ask me if I have company over and think I'm cheating yet deny that's what he's doing, just like my ex. I left my ex because I could I had support. But my family has turned everyone against me and so now I have no one to help me except this new boyfriend with support. I'm not really all that interested in him because I think he just saw me as a vulnerable woman that wouldn't stand up to him, just like my ex. I was wondering, is it possible to get recovered? Because I feel so vulnerable and barely go anywhere because my ptsd is bad. Ill see older men staring at my body and it disgusts me how men just treat woman like objects to be used and not as humans. My ex treated me good sometimes and sometimes recall bad. Like the abuse. And my new boyfriend is really insecure it feels like but is hiding it and my gut tells me he's worse than my ex and could really hurt me if I ever see him in person. I just want help, but even the mental health people judge my disorder even though it may actually also be ptsd as well. Complex and just pays from my childhood and now my ex and this new boyfriend makes me feel like he has to have all the control so I just give in, even though he's not here physically it started out the same way with my ex and when we finally moved in together he got very abusive. Is it my fault? I keep wondering if its me or in abusive I can't be though I just wonder why I can't find someone who will treat me as a human and not an object and will live me for me and actually be there and be in a normal relationship.

让我们来解决房间里的大象
虐待就是虐待!!期! !
无论施虐者是否患有边缘性人格障碍、自恋型人格障碍、反社会型人格障碍、表演型人格障碍或其他任何障碍。
如果你被虐待了，滚出去!!跑得越远越好!!
那就帮帮你自己吧!!首先，你需要找出不健康的人吸引你的地方。
如果你正处于一段被虐待的关系中，赶快离开!!你要干什么?你是受虐狂吗?你在等着你的“爱”找到一个新的受害者，然后甩了你吗?你想被推到你的极限和SNAP吗?滚出去!!在你以外的人受重伤之前。滚出去!!在你痛骂虐待你的人或他们欺骗过的人或你自己之前。最终你输了。
走出去，跑得越远越好，给自己一些认真的帮助，相信你可以和一个真正爱你、尊重你的人有一段正常、健康、幸福的关系。
人格障碍是在一生的尝试和错误中形成的。
虐待不应该被容忍!!
也许一旦那些患有人格障碍的人明白了这一点，他们就会有动力去改变。

有趣(也许不是)你在这里列出的虐待迹象是我的BPD重要的另一半对我做的。
如果他们说这就是我所做的，那么这将只是另一个扭转一切(投射)以负责任地避免的例子。
只是一种没完没了的煤气灯技术。

在这个问题上很难找到有知识的人，但你听起来好像知道你在说什么!谢谢

我很少受到身体上的虐待，但自从我们7年前见面以来，情感和精神上的虐待就一直如此严重。我害怕和别人说话，因为我是男性而她是女性，我不想诽谤她，我也害怕如果我对任何人说她的坏话，她会报复
我的妻子是边缘性的，她是一个情绪化的恶霸。一切都必须按照她的方式，否则整个房子都要感受到她的愤怒。在过去的7年里，她操纵我，让我相信她所有的愤怒都是我的错，我也相信了。我刚刚意识到真相。她是个恶霸，我做什么她都不高兴。书中所有的名字我都叫过。没有一个是真的。我现在知道了。我只是想退出。当我告诉她我想离婚时，我害怕她的反应。 I have wanted one for a year now but haven't told her. Oh well, I know I need to get out. The abuse never stops and my mental state is deteriorating. I feel crazy all the time and hope to wake up from this nightmare but every time I wake up I have to face this harsh reality.

我处在一段被虐待的关系中。我被打过，被咬过，被抓过，被骂过所有可能的名字。我工作并支持我的伴侣。我被贴上了BPD的标签。我的伴侣把他的愤怒和性格变化归咎于我。我感到失落，空虚，愤怒，悲伤。我没有自尊。我在过去的十年里没有社交生活。在遇到男朋友之前，我一直在学着快乐。我内心深处知道我的处境很糟糕。我的大部分都认为我错了。他诋毁我。我刚开始告诉别人他对我做了什么。他嫉妒我的工作，我很生气。我小时候曾受到言语和身体上的虐待。我真希望我死了。我需要比DBT和心理咨询更多的帮助。我害怕有一天我会结束自己的生命。我害怕被抛弃。他打电话给他妈妈，威胁说要离开。我在绝望中行动，然后恨自己。帮助我。